it is offical
After 33 years of tryin to make Christmas a happy time of the year. I give up. I am so tired of the bickering the yelling and families doing stupid things.
Christmas from here on out for me will be nothing more than a time that I can work a lot. in 33 years I can only think of 1 christmas in my life that wast decent. I give up. I phych myself out for it every year just to be let down. I think I am gonna be much happer to not just worry about it anymore. I am a person who is used to having Christmas canceled (thanks mom) I just dont need it anymore.
Please know that I am not being a scrooge. It is just how I feel. I feel that I will be a happier person if I just use this time of the year to work and not try to be festive myself. In the long run christmas has always done nothing but put me in a bad mood.