changing... not clothes

[actony883]

well yet its changing again, things arent going so good with me and becca... but yet this time i dont know what im doing wrong :-( i dont know how to be good for her anymore. i know i shouldnt say this but sometimes i feel like i should be the one thats just like ... im sorry but i dont seem like u like me anymore i think we should just take a break or something cause i cant seem to be good enough :-( but my heart always cant do it, cause i love her so much that i just cant say those words. i thought everything was ok... but i guess not. this journal thing is the only thing i can tell cause i dont think anyone else would wnat to know. i dont know how to please her anymore. i wish she would be more open with me cause i dont even know whats wrong. things are changing again. but atleast schools out so i dont have to worry about that. hopefully things will get better, they usually do, i just wish they stayed good. i wish there was some way she would just understand me. and like know that i trust her but it just dont work. i want all this to work with me and her but ... its life, life is random and u never know what will happen next. it all day by day. if anything happend to me and her i just... well i would hope i get her back someday, cause even thou we went though a lot of stuff she was the best g\f ive ever had. shes just like the right type for me. i love her with all my heart and i always will. maybe i am to worrying and not enough trusting but its part of me but i know that should change and its gona. i know im not perfect but if u practice u can get close. i wanna be that one she wakes up to every morning with a "good morning baby" and just take care of someone i love. i dont know what she wants anymore. i just wanna leave forever. leave forever. forever. .and always will you be in my heart. everything ive done i have done for u but it dont seem to be enough. ive stuck with you though all ur troubles, i helped you with so many things, i helped you become good again. what else do you want me to do. what else do u want me to be. i dont know what to do anymore, i wish that it would all just go away.... but not her. no one knows... i wish i could just hear her voice. i spent so much time with her. my days wernt complete without her. ill write later i guess im not finished, i love her!! i always will. i just wanna be happy...

im out.... i wish for good