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Well...this morning was the funeral. It was a beautiful service.
I think the hardest part for me in these last two days (and I'm not sure why) was meeting Chris's real dad and his stepmom. I had never met them before, and his dad is an amazing guy. He and his wife approached me and he thanked me for being part of Chris's life, and all of the family members told me they had heard so much about me and had heard so many stories. And it made me think about all the time we spent together, and all the memories we made. When his dad spoke at the funeral this morning, I lost it completely. It was heartbreaking.
It was really, really tough, but I just have to think...he's free now.
Something so difficult for me today was putting my rose on his casket and having to walk away and knowing that it was final. He is gone for real. Today it really clicked. The reception cheered me up though, as did my day with Jill.
We drove around singing the whole Mamma Mia Soundtrack at the top of our lungs, got bubble tea, were lazy, then rented some movies and just relaxed at her house. Being the stupid person I am, I suggested we watch the Notebook..yeah, bad call on my part. I was so sad on the way home. But now here I am, and I'm feeling really tired. I haven't been able to sleep well lately.
I hope I am able to get back to my normal self soon. it's been one hell of an emotional ride, and thank you to everyone who put up with it.
At dinner my mom and I talked about so many memories we have of Chris, and talked about how truly greatful we are that we were able to know him. We set him off on his journey on a beautiful sunny day, which couldn't have been more perfect, because it truly reflected the person he was.
I'll miss you always Chris, rest in peace. ♥
I think the hardest part for me in these last two days (and I'm not sure why) was meeting Chris's real dad and his stepmom. I had never met them before, and his dad is an amazing guy. He and his wife approached me and he thanked me for being part of Chris's life, and all of the family members told me they had heard so much about me and had heard so many stories. And it made me think about all the time we spent together, and all the memories we made. When his dad spoke at the funeral this morning, I lost it completely. It was heartbreaking.
It was really, really tough, but I just have to think...he's free now.
Something so difficult for me today was putting my rose on his casket and having to walk away and knowing that it was final. He is gone for real. Today it really clicked. The reception cheered me up though, as did my day with Jill.
We drove around singing the whole Mamma Mia Soundtrack at the top of our lungs, got bubble tea, were lazy, then rented some movies and just relaxed at her house. Being the stupid person I am, I suggested we watch the Notebook..yeah, bad call on my part. I was so sad on the way home. But now here I am, and I'm feeling really tired. I haven't been able to sleep well lately.
I hope I am able to get back to my normal self soon. it's been one hell of an emotional ride, and thank you to everyone who put up with it.
At dinner my mom and I talked about so many memories we have of Chris, and talked about how truly greatful we are that we were able to know him. We set him off on his journey on a beautiful sunny day, which couldn't have been more perfect, because it truly reflected the person he was.
I'll miss you always Chris, rest in peace. ♥