Ever have things that you know should make you happy but they don't and you don't know why?
So I've had these interviews for a position as counter manager at Benefit Cosmetics at Macy's. Last week I interviewed with Benefit and even "auditioned" and called people over and did makeovers and sold stuff. Tonight I had one with Macy's (they're two seperate companies, but I'd be working for both).
There would be about 35 hours a weeks, I'd be making great money and I'd get a decent discount, not to mention that I love cosmetics. But the whole thing just makes me really sick. I basically lied to them and said I'd be able to continue working in the fall, and that I'd plan my school schedule around them. But it's pretty much impossible. They have a set rotation schedule where I'll need to be available like 9 to 5 some week days, and 1 to close others (this keeps changing each rotation). Days off vary, i.e. Saturday and Wednesday one week and Sat/Sun the next, etc. There is no way I will be able to take classes to work around that.
But there is NO way I am going to sacrifice school for work. I don't want to work retail for the rest of my life. I want to be a clinical psychologist and I'm not able to let anything get in the way of that. Is it wrong for me to lie and say I can do this, take the position for the summer (if I get offered it) and then puss out in the fall? Just tell them I underestimated how much time I'd be needing to dedicate to school and whatnot, adn then quit in the fall?
I don't see myself being very happy at this job but I'm not happy at Victoria's Secret, either. I don't know what to do. If I get offered this postion, should I just go for it? Do I need to think about this? I'm just trying to do the thing that will make my life better, and if I got this job I may be able to finally save up for a reliable car, etc. I need to better my life but I don't want to stress myself out anymore, either...