i'll always be right here waiting . . .
i just feel like i can't be strong anymore . . .
...
and i don't want to compalin. i hate complaining because i know i dont have it bad. but i just can't handle anything anymore. my life is out of control it feels like. and i don't have a handle on it. im not controlling it. everyone else is. im so confused. i just wanted to get this out. and i know i've been wierd this week, and this is why.