If you loved me, you would be here with me
Don't mind the emo subject line. I know my family loves me, but it just sucks that they couldn't make it here today. Not to mention, my sister has a 102 degree fever and that's nothing to scoff at. I'm just worried that my Mom and Larry will have missed my only "real" show at college if I don't get cast in another department show. And my only show here so far that I had my own bow. Not that I deserved it, but I still got to take it. Grr. It just really hurt that they couldn't make it here. At least my Mom was equally upset that they couldn't come. She promised me that they'd never make plans to see the last show of one of my runs again. I couldn't stop crying while we were getting ready to start the show and I felt completely ridiculous and childish, but I couldn't help it.
Now I guess I really just HAVE to get cast again. God, it would be orgasmic to be in the Shakespeare. Too bad I'm a crazy ho to even think that I have a chance.
I'm going to miss Iolanthe very badly. I had a ton of fun. Okay, I'm not going to talk about it anyone because it will just make my P.S.S. worse.
In other news, Jenn and I are driving home together this weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. I can't wait to get some quality time with the roomie and to see my family. I miss my Mom and Theo and Larry and Greta like nobody's business.
I'm proud of myself for making a good decision this weekend. I think it was for the best.
I'm less proud of myself for not knowing what to do about another situation and not knowing who to talk to about it. For now, I'm just keeping it bottled up inside.
RANDOM SHOUT-OUT: Whitney, I love you and he's such a huge asshole. You're gorgeous and talented and smart and an amazing friend and anyone who doesn't appreciate that simply doesn't deserve to live. Okay, I'm done. For now.
The more I think about it, the more I love the life I'm living RIGHT NOW and that scares me immensely because I've never felt like I wanted to stop time so much in my life. I've always wanted to just get on with it and move to the next stage of my life, but I'm having so much fun these days that I never want it to end and it's petrifying. I'm scared to grow up for the first time in my life.
Alright, I'm going to stop monopolizing Dan's computer and go lay down and monopolize his bed instead. Because that's the kind of nice person that I am :)
I love you all, I truly do. Please know that whatever kind of a wench I am, I do love you and am so happy that you're all in my life. Adieu.
Now I guess I really just HAVE to get cast again. God, it would be orgasmic to be in the Shakespeare. Too bad I'm a crazy ho to even think that I have a chance.
I'm going to miss Iolanthe very badly. I had a ton of fun. Okay, I'm not going to talk about it anyone because it will just make my P.S.S. worse.
In other news, Jenn and I are driving home together this weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. I can't wait to get some quality time with the roomie and to see my family. I miss my Mom and Theo and Larry and Greta like nobody's business.
I'm proud of myself for making a good decision this weekend. I think it was for the best.
I'm less proud of myself for not knowing what to do about another situation and not knowing who to talk to about it. For now, I'm just keeping it bottled up inside.
RANDOM SHOUT-OUT: Whitney, I love you and he's such a huge asshole. You're gorgeous and talented and smart and an amazing friend and anyone who doesn't appreciate that simply doesn't deserve to live. Okay, I'm done. For now.
The more I think about it, the more I love the life I'm living RIGHT NOW and that scares me immensely because I've never felt like I wanted to stop time so much in my life. I've always wanted to just get on with it and move to the next stage of my life, but I'm having so much fun these days that I never want it to end and it's petrifying. I'm scared to grow up for the first time in my life.
Alright, I'm going to stop monopolizing Dan's computer and go lay down and monopolize his bed instead. Because that's the kind of nice person that I am :)
I love you all, I truly do. Please know that whatever kind of a wench I am, I do love you and am so happy that you're all in my life. Adieu.