Wah-Wah my vagina hurts and other things sticking in my crawl - so to speak
I'm in a very bad mood as of the current moment (and my husband is being as patient as he can with me...) I've had a few things banging in my head for a while doing the same bouncy ball routine so this is TL;DR i'm sure.
Long post ranting about my vag, people not minding their own business, and general irritation about wanting to kick people in the face.
My clit huts- yes you read that right. Someone thought it would be funny to apply a very high speed concentrated vibrator to it directly- let me tell you how much fun that was not. (FYI no it was not Chad he knows better) It has been over two weeks and it STILL hurts and there is (pardon the pun) dick all I can do about it. The most irritating part is I specifically said NOT TO on the list of things that is not ok that is up there. I am aware that I am currently being passive aggressive about it, I'm trying to wait until I'm not so severely angry and upset about it so there isn't lots of yelling on my part.
WHY THE FUCK do people think i need to fucking telegraph every gods damn thing I am doing?! Do you pay my bills? are you living with me? Then why do you think i should tell you about decidions I am making with my love, life and my business? Further more why in all of seven hells do you think i would want your unasked advice about either?? There are maybe a total of four people that are privy to the decisions I make with my life and who know enough about me for me to discuss things with them.
If you want to be rude to me I will gladly return the favor. Trying to talk to me about weather or not Chad and I can afford our new place- not acceptable. I had a friend bring this up to me (this was before the magical dissapearing paycheck) I really wanted to yell "No we can't Chad and I just said FUCK IT- we don't need to eat food or do anything ever again. NO need to tally our finances lets just jump right into this!" Seriously.... This makes me angry and annoyed and prone to want to ignore this person. Can you say none of your business?? yes this place is more expensive then where we are living thats pretty easy. We lucked out on that part sorry finding a house for 675 is not the norm. As far as the new place being expensive goes I've seen one bedroom apartments for the same amount. It is not expensive it is well worth it, we wanted it so we are moving there thank you very much.
As far as my hat business goes if you have anything negative or want to give unasked critisim seriously eat a dick- i've been doing it for LESS THAN A YEAR. I'm all self taught spend a lot of time work and aggravation doing it, but i love doing it. I had someone compare my hats to someone who has been making hats for 15 years and fucking went to school for it. Give me a god damn break. To the people who helped me out with it when i asked - who's artistic opinon means a great deal to me thank you for pushing me to keep going.
I AM NOT LOANING OUT ANY MORE OF MY THINGS AT ALL. You want costuming, hats, jewlery whatever I I'm coming with it or you fucking will pay me for it. Models have borrowed quite a bit of my stuff an i haven't gotten any of it back yet OR THEY FUCKING WANT ME TO COME PICK IT UP! grrrrrrrrrrrrr....... I did you the gods damn favor getting nothing out of it gimme my shit back. (Steph this SO doesn't apply to you- you are doing me the favor so Ignore)
The next person who asks me for a discount on make-up or a hat is just going to get a smack in the mouth. There is small list of people who get discounts due to me knowing I will be getting continuous work from them, we worked something out for group shoots, or I really like working with you. People I have never met: Etsy: "I only have 45 in my budget will you sell me that special order hat??" Someone actually asked for that- a special order hat isn't even made yet..... You want me to give you a huge discount on a hat I have not yet put hard work into- Sure why not... I can't afford the $75 for hair and make-up can you do 30? Please go into a Solon and ask that- better yet ask another make up artist that will charge you the actual rate we are supposed to be billed at- $150 for one look JUST make-up or 300 for a whole studio day. Suck my cock.
I've been having to deal with to many people lately and it is getting on my nerves. I want to move, go camping and work on hats. Save for a few events/work if people want to see me they can come to the house. Also don't get me wrong- I think just about all of you have nothing to do with any of this and I can Actually stand your company. *sigh*
Long post ranting about my vag, people not minding their own business, and general irritation about wanting to kick people in the face.
My clit huts- yes you read that right. Someone thought it would be funny to apply a very high speed concentrated vibrator to it directly- let me tell you how much fun that was not. (FYI no it was not Chad he knows better) It has been over two weeks and it STILL hurts and there is (pardon the pun) dick all I can do about it. The most irritating part is I specifically said NOT TO on the list of things that is not ok that is up there. I am aware that I am currently being passive aggressive about it, I'm trying to wait until I'm not so severely angry and upset about it so there isn't lots of yelling on my part.
WHY THE FUCK do people think i need to fucking telegraph every gods damn thing I am doing?! Do you pay my bills? are you living with me? Then why do you think i should tell you about decidions I am making with my love, life and my business? Further more why in all of seven hells do you think i would want your unasked advice about either?? There are maybe a total of four people that are privy to the decisions I make with my life and who know enough about me for me to discuss things with them.
If you want to be rude to me I will gladly return the favor. Trying to talk to me about weather or not Chad and I can afford our new place- not acceptable. I had a friend bring this up to me (this was before the magical dissapearing paycheck) I really wanted to yell "No we can't Chad and I just said FUCK IT- we don't need to eat food or do anything ever again. NO need to tally our finances lets just jump right into this!" Seriously.... This makes me angry and annoyed and prone to want to ignore this person. Can you say none of your business?? yes this place is more expensive then where we are living thats pretty easy. We lucked out on that part sorry finding a house for 675 is not the norm. As far as the new place being expensive goes I've seen one bedroom apartments for the same amount. It is not expensive it is well worth it, we wanted it so we are moving there thank you very much.
As far as my hat business goes if you have anything negative or want to give unasked critisim seriously eat a dick- i've been doing it for LESS THAN A YEAR. I'm all self taught spend a lot of time work and aggravation doing it, but i love doing it. I had someone compare my hats to someone who has been making hats for 15 years and fucking went to school for it. Give me a god damn break. To the people who helped me out with it when i asked - who's artistic opinon means a great deal to me thank you for pushing me to keep going.
I AM NOT LOANING OUT ANY MORE OF MY THINGS AT ALL. You want costuming, hats, jewlery whatever I I'm coming with it or you fucking will pay me for it. Models have borrowed quite a bit of my stuff an i haven't gotten any of it back yet OR THEY FUCKING WANT ME TO COME PICK IT UP! grrrrrrrrrrrrr....... I did you the gods damn favor getting nothing out of it gimme my shit back. (Steph this SO doesn't apply to you- you are doing me the favor so Ignore)
The next person who asks me for a discount on make-up or a hat is just going to get a smack in the mouth. There is small list of people who get discounts due to me knowing I will be getting continuous work from them, we worked something out for group shoots, or I really like working with you. People I have never met: Etsy: "I only have 45 in my budget will you sell me that special order hat??" Someone actually asked for that- a special order hat isn't even made yet..... You want me to give you a huge discount on a hat I have not yet put hard work into- Sure why not... I can't afford the $75 for hair and make-up can you do 30? Please go into a Solon and ask that- better yet ask another make up artist that will charge you the actual rate we are supposed to be billed at- $150 for one look JUST make-up or 300 for a whole studio day. Suck my cock.
I've been having to deal with to many people lately and it is getting on my nerves. I want to move, go camping and work on hats. Save for a few events/work if people want to see me they can come to the house. Also don't get me wrong- I think just about all of you have nothing to do with any of this and I can Actually stand your company. *sigh*