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People have no idea how much it sucks to be so lonely.
It hurts.
And it gets so much worse on weekends.
I have so much to do. So much that I need to finish before the end of the semester. So much to work on that I should be keeping myself busy with. But I can't...I can't focus. I just keep thinking about how lonely I am. I have no drive to finish anything because I'm not looking forward to anything. I have nothing to work towards. Once I am finished with what I'm doing I can be free and...and...
...and sit in my apartment online. Hoping that people will talk to me on AIM. And even when someone does, it's one of about 3 or 4 people. I have no one to talk to. No one to hang out with. My mom bitches at me and says that I basically put myself in solitary confinement. Sorry, but sitting in public places by yourself doesn't help make friends either.
My throat is all tight.
I hate weekends. The only good thing is that I get to sleep in later.
I hate how I literally can't make friends.
I want to go home right now. I'm so sick of this campus and how damn clean it is. It doesn't feel like anyone goes here, even though clearly bazillions of people do. I hate this campus. I hate these people.
I just want to be sitting at Roch with MoMo making fun of people.
It hurts.
And it gets so much worse on weekends.
I have so much to do. So much that I need to finish before the end of the semester. So much to work on that I should be keeping myself busy with. But I can't...I can't focus. I just keep thinking about how lonely I am. I have no drive to finish anything because I'm not looking forward to anything. I have nothing to work towards. Once I am finished with what I'm doing I can be free and...and...
...and sit in my apartment online. Hoping that people will talk to me on AIM. And even when someone does, it's one of about 3 or 4 people. I have no one to talk to. No one to hang out with. My mom bitches at me and says that I basically put myself in solitary confinement. Sorry, but sitting in public places by yourself doesn't help make friends either.
My throat is all tight.
I hate weekends. The only good thing is that I get to sleep in later.
I hate how I literally can't make friends.
I want to go home right now. I'm so sick of this campus and how damn clean it is. It doesn't feel like anyone goes here, even though clearly bazillions of people do. I hate this campus. I hate these people.
I just want to be sitting at Roch with MoMo making fun of people.