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I'm in a pretty shitty mood right now. Everything is just not going right. I got a lot less money back from GV than I thought I was going to, and when I tried to put it into my account they put a hold on it until friday... I really need that money. My account was down to $3.00. My mom put some cash in for me though, but I have to pay her back. I was just counting on that money and it wasn't nearly what I was expecting. I don't know how I'm going to handle everything.
This week I got scheduled 29 hours at work. I'm working almost everyday that I am available. It leaves me no extra time to do anything. I haven't spent any time with Jen, I'm always at class or working, and when I'm home she seems to be gone a lot. Not that I blame her, she should be going out, she works just as much, even more than me, she deserves to go out. I just miss talking to her, like I didn't see her at all the last 2 days. It was sad. And not only Jen, but I haven't seen Jake for more than 10 minutes at a time this entire week. He stopped by on his way home from work last night, he was here maybe 10 minutes. Definitely not enough time to talk or do anything. I get to see him tomorrow night, but not until like 10:00, and we won't get any alone time really, not until after the dinner and we go back to his place. He's supposed to teach me how to swing dance tomorrow night, but I don't even know if it will happen, by the time we're done here and go back it will be pretty late. And I have class Friday, he works friday night, I work all day saturday then I'm going to my dad's until tuesday! It sucks so much, being so close to someone, living right down the road from them, and not even being able to see them but once a week. It really puts a strain on the relationship you know? We both really want to see each other, but there's nothing either one of us can do to make it happen. He works 2 jobs, 40-50 hours a week, he does a lot of doubles, going from 6:30am-11:30pm, and he's a full time student too. So obviously there's not much time he gets off, and less time that we have off together. And it makes me really sad. And I'm complaining about this way too much I know, but I'm just really bummed out about it and it's put me in a bad mood.
I have a feeling I'm going to have a really rough semester. Like I'm already stressing out about it. I don't need this. Summer was not long enough. I'm not ready for this yet.
This week I got scheduled 29 hours at work. I'm working almost everyday that I am available. It leaves me no extra time to do anything. I haven't spent any time with Jen, I'm always at class or working, and when I'm home she seems to be gone a lot. Not that I blame her, she should be going out, she works just as much, even more than me, she deserves to go out. I just miss talking to her, like I didn't see her at all the last 2 days. It was sad. And not only Jen, but I haven't seen Jake for more than 10 minutes at a time this entire week. He stopped by on his way home from work last night, he was here maybe 10 minutes. Definitely not enough time to talk or do anything. I get to see him tomorrow night, but not until like 10:00, and we won't get any alone time really, not until after the dinner and we go back to his place. He's supposed to teach me how to swing dance tomorrow night, but I don't even know if it will happen, by the time we're done here and go back it will be pretty late. And I have class Friday, he works friday night, I work all day saturday then I'm going to my dad's until tuesday! It sucks so much, being so close to someone, living right down the road from them, and not even being able to see them but once a week. It really puts a strain on the relationship you know? We both really want to see each other, but there's nothing either one of us can do to make it happen. He works 2 jobs, 40-50 hours a week, he does a lot of doubles, going from 6:30am-11:30pm, and he's a full time student too. So obviously there's not much time he gets off, and less time that we have off together. And it makes me really sad. And I'm complaining about this way too much I know, but I'm just really bummed out about it and it's put me in a bad mood.
I have a feeling I'm going to have a really rough semester. Like I'm already stressing out about it. I don't need this. Summer was not long enough. I'm not ready for this yet.