god damnit

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my rabbit Thumper. i had him since i was in the 4th grade. he was my easter bunny. my present. today he was murdered. yes. a wild animal came into my backyard and tore him to pieces. he laid there with his insides out. blood all over the grass. flies all over the place. makes me angry and sad. sad bc i didnt get a chance to say anything to him. yea so what? hes not a dog, hes not a cat, but hes my pet rabbit that i have had for this long. hes been part of the family in a wierd way. we have 2 cages for him that we have in the backyard. we leave both doors open so he can roam around and dwell upon his world. sometimes squirrels will come to eat his food, no big deal. but i think either an opossum or a fox came and ate him up. i will seek vengance. im going to leave some raw meat in the backyard and wait for something to come around, if its an opossum im shooting it until its dead. i dont care what anyone says. he was my rabbit and hes dead. my dad cleaned up the mess. wrapped him in newspapers and disposed of his corpse. he was the pet that wasnt a pet but was. whenever my parents are gardening hes always around hopping around and he would always like to scratch his neck against our shoes. now my backyard is lifeless. i knew he was getting old, i knew his time would come. but not now not this way. fuck that man. im glad i took the time last week to take a few pictures of him before it was too late. i will miss him.

on another note. i lost more money tonite. everything i had. i started gambling away my cigarettes and i was going to gamble away my nice lighter. my friends are true friends when they stop me from heading to the atm. indeed.

now im sadder than ever. my days are ruined. my life upside down. and many more days to go.