this oath runs deeper

[acslaya]

it is amazing how someone you can look up to for so long and hold close as a friend can turn their back on you and everything they ever said.maybe i'm not seeing the big picture or whatever, but i feel betrayed.to be honest i'm not sure where i'm going with any.it's even more amazing how their decisions seem so irrelivant to them but have such a big impact on everyone else.i do think this is fucking selfish on my part and on them.me because i wish that things wouldn't have changed.that life wouldn't have gotten the best of us.and theirs for letting go and never looking back.

i'm not sure how far things will go from here but hey can only get worse.