Eleventh Thread
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Bringing the laptop along was a stupid idea, simply due to its weight. What happened to get a lighter one? Oh right. Not making any money as I’m a frigging college student.
If I can get out of this complex before term starts. Gah.
Either way, it’s good to be able to type. Take advantage of a chance to clear my thoughts, a private entry. With all the running about, it’s a wonder I can think straight at all. I’ve camped out in this closet for awhile and I’ve comfy. Ish. I have a sneaking suspicion whose fur coats these are but it’s not like Wind and Co is going to be coming through here any time soon. Or anyone, hopefully.
No outlet, but between my phone and computer’s batteries I’ve been able to keep up with what’s going on in the journals. Unsurprising, it’s been most of the same, people complaining - we’ve got some new arrivals immortals joy - and then he posted again.
Just. Effing. Brilliant.
For one thing, Cher is not immortal. Proof of that? I can stand her.
Secondly…secondly…damnit head think. I don’t know. I just don’t fucking know what to do anymore between him and my sanity. Yes he and madness have an interrelationship of an absurd degree (Not the personification the actual…phenomena though how else would you term it? Gah, I hate this) and thus sanity is automatically out of the window but what the Hades am I supposed to be doing anyway?
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I can’t believe I just stopped there, waiting for someone to fill in the cocky answer for me. Another sign I’m going mad. When did I start relying on others again?
It’s not that I dislike him. That’s been…disproven. He doesn’t seem like the rest of the Gods - it doesn’t seem like he’s doing everything he can to fuck our esteemed lower mortals’ lives up. At least not yet, you can’t trust them. But DANGIT - I don’t believe any of it. I’ve seen the texts, the articles, talked to the supposed ‘experts’ at the local department. It’s probably not going to last, you can see already how easily he’s distracted.
Maybe it’s all of them. Maybe they all just get distracted and that’s why…but Theseus said he doesn’t hate me. And he didn’t, ever. Does he even know that I cursed him after? He deserved it, but… I don’t know what to do. I think I’ve mentioned this already, but it’s not like anyone’s going to read this anyway. Private for a reason.
…this should be calming and it really isn’t. I think I’m more confused than when I started. And hungry. I rather like this closet though and I won’t find it again knowing things…knowing my luck I’d finally run into him, in person and that’d be…
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Awkward.
It’s been the one thing I’ve been avoiding, but I think at this point I’d rather have some time alone and to myself. Just left alone for a good while. Not bothered by anyone. Have a feeling Cronus wouldn’t let that happen.
Funny, when I got here a few months ago Cronus seemed like the greatest thing since non-human sacrifices. It was him - not me killing myself, not Dionysus - who got me off of Naxos. Yet I’m quite ready to kill him at this point.
Replace Dionysus with Cronus in that statement and you have a recipe for future disaster. Or what could have been one. Right?
…and that would be my battery beeping at me saying that it’s about to die. Ranting was supposed to help things - a payment for the battery I suppose - but again this feels useless.