the purple jolly ranchers smell like raw hot dogs.
There are some things that have been going on... Its like whenever my life starts to go in a good direction its like so many things come at me like and try and break me down and Ive tried to be so strong and make the right choices for everything but its like there are so many things that are overwhelming me right now it feels like Im gonna just break in half, its like Im running out of air and I really am trying to hard, I havent listened to secular music at all sine the encounter and if I have its because it has been in someone elses car but in my car and in my room its all Christian its mostly just praise and worship and its a good thing to be filling myself with in my opinion and I havent cussed since then and I have been reading my bible and doing my devotion EVERYDAY I seriously dont think I have missed one day. and Im praying A LOT more and its like still everything is getting screwed up around me, like today was TERRIBLE and its like my rep is the one thing that keeps getting screwed over... and Its seriously hurts because Im doing sooo goood but no one can tell because everyone keeps saying crap about me and its like that whole group is done with school and they're gonna be down here and Im just worried that its gonna get so much worse. I dont know maybe I will address some of those things when certain people comein contact with me and I know one of them will probably tomorrow if not tomorrow almost definately Sunday... i dont know Im just sick of everything getting worse around me and better on the inside, I want it all to be getting better, and on top of it all Im sick like a mad man... and that sucks too! but Im going to sleep right now cuz Im tired!