Zach is my Boo!
Spring
break is going great Ive spent every day this week with Angela, Man I
love my friends, all of them, they are all great, me Ruthy and Angela
were talking and its funny who are still your friend when you get into
sticky places, but the people that are still around in the middle of it
all.. thats them, I love you guys! lol BUT if you know me, then
you know that when I get time alone I start to think and I have
done it again, I have thunk myself retarded lol My deal is this: I dont
understand how you can have feelings for someone and pursue someone
else, and despite that being my belief I kinda think thats what Im
doing, and Im not ok with that, if that be the case, and I honestly
think that the reason I have feelings for person A was to get past the
feelings I had for person B and that was fine for a while I went around
and didnt have any complications with that and everything was gravy but
then things get weird with person A and so I bring back my feelings for
person B and in reality I think that things with person A turned weird
because of the past history wtih Person B so I freaked out and went
after person C and person C doesnt evn really exsist technically,
person C represents all of the possible boys in my life... lol I think
I have just thunk my self even more so reatarded than I was before. UGH
o well, I dont need a guy right now anyways, I would really love one,
but I need to really deal with some old feelings before getting
involved with anyone else... and Im not letting anyone get involved
with my next relationship FOR SURE I swear that everything that my
friends tell me trying to help, confuses me and scares the heck out of
me. so Im not going for anyone with my wweird questions or problems I
DONT WANT ADVICE I DONT WANT TO KNOW WHO ANY ONE THINKS I SHOULD BE
WITH, Some times I think that I let people change my mind and the way I
feel when In the beginning my feelings are real and genuine but they
just dont happen to be what everyone one wants me to feel... ok Im done
Im gonna go watch Gilmore Girls.
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All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything he does is beautiful
Everything he does is right
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
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All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything he does is beautiful
Everything he does is right
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive