me and jimmy are friends again.
I
am really loosing sight of everything.. I'm having second thoughts
about everything I was so sure about two days ago... up until now I was
so sure that this was the right thing, but now Im not so sure anymore..
I dont know what to do anymore, I feel like I cant feel my soul
anymore.
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on another note, I went to the doctors today and I got some meds, and its probably a good thing because everyone at school seems to be sick, two people have the chickne pocks and some one has pneumonia and two people have scarlet fever!! thats right scarlet fever.. and theres like 9 people with strep throat, and just for everyones knowledge strep throat untreated turns into scarlet fever... so beware, theres people with pink eye too... and theres like 40 pople with the flu.. its terrible, everyones sick. but I'm getting better FINALLY, my throat isnt as swolen and my nose is clear and my head finally stopped pounding and the fever is gone Im still really flemmy on the inside but thats about it.. Im still kinda tired too but thats nothing too bad...
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I think Im finally going back to school and work tomorrow... I swear when I go back Im probably gonna get fired for missing so many days but what can ya do... I really hope not cuz I need the money.. I dont know if I mentioned this in a previous entry but. Rev and Kids Camp are the same week this summer... which sucks cuz I dont want to miss either... I already told PB I would do KC and I havent missed Rev since the EDGE started going... but Kids Camp is FREE... and thats a huge huge huge plus and besides I like Kids Camp a heck of a lot more then Rev... I wouldnt be so upset but, I had such a great time being a room leader at Rev last year.. I think the only difference was the nice little leaders meeting lol, but still I had suck a GREAT time in the room wth the girls and we had such good talks and such good devos and such just good fun together in the room I mean it was like 9 girls in a hotel room, we pushed the beds together and ordered pizza from out of the hotel... (probably something that wasnt aloud) It was just sooo much fun the late night girl talks... and dont get me wrong, I had an amazing time at kids camp, well minus the injury to my breast and the trip to the ER and practically every girl in my room either gushing blood or hurling , not to mention the extremely ungodly number of them that were still wetting the bed and having nightmares that got me up about 8 times EVERYNIGHT.. but still theres just something so rewarding about the way they would come in crying during the middle of the night cuz they were afriad some one would figure out what happened and just being able to be there and sit on the side of their bed and sing them to sleep... I know sounds dumb but it was a really awesome thing to have all these girls just automatically trusting you because your therefore them for that week... so enevitalbly I picked Kids Camp.. so because Im not gonna have to pay for Rev this year, I am going to go on two missions trips this summer. I KNOW CRAZY RIGHT?? well I hope it will be good, It should be a very full summer! Ruthy will be having the baby and I should be here for that... If all goes as planned... then the missions trips then Kids Camp... WOW Im excited... I know that some areas of the summer are gonna be hard, coming in contact with certain people in certain places but its gonna be ok I think.. It really is.... but I have yet to start any of those reports but Im not gonna even try to start anything until after 11 30 ... cuz theres new gilmore girls then friends right after that.. yeah Wish me luck!
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on another note, I went to the doctors today and I got some meds, and its probably a good thing because everyone at school seems to be sick, two people have the chickne pocks and some one has pneumonia and two people have scarlet fever!! thats right scarlet fever.. and theres like 9 people with strep throat, and just for everyones knowledge strep throat untreated turns into scarlet fever... so beware, theres people with pink eye too... and theres like 40 pople with the flu.. its terrible, everyones sick. but I'm getting better FINALLY, my throat isnt as swolen and my nose is clear and my head finally stopped pounding and the fever is gone Im still really flemmy on the inside but thats about it.. Im still kinda tired too but thats nothing too bad...
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I think Im finally going back to school and work tomorrow... I swear when I go back Im probably gonna get fired for missing so many days but what can ya do... I really hope not cuz I need the money.. I dont know if I mentioned this in a previous entry but. Rev and Kids Camp are the same week this summer... which sucks cuz I dont want to miss either... I already told PB I would do KC and I havent missed Rev since the EDGE started going... but Kids Camp is FREE... and thats a huge huge huge plus and besides I like Kids Camp a heck of a lot more then Rev... I wouldnt be so upset but, I had such a great time being a room leader at Rev last year.. I think the only difference was the nice little leaders meeting lol, but still I had suck a GREAT time in the room wth the girls and we had such good talks and such good devos and such just good fun together in the room I mean it was like 9 girls in a hotel room, we pushed the beds together and ordered pizza from out of the hotel... (probably something that wasnt aloud) It was just sooo much fun the late night girl talks... and dont get me wrong, I had an amazing time at kids camp, well minus the injury to my breast and the trip to the ER and practically every girl in my room either gushing blood or hurling , not to mention the extremely ungodly number of them that were still wetting the bed and having nightmares that got me up about 8 times EVERYNIGHT.. but still theres just something so rewarding about the way they would come in crying during the middle of the night cuz they were afriad some one would figure out what happened and just being able to be there and sit on the side of their bed and sing them to sleep... I know sounds dumb but it was a really awesome thing to have all these girls just automatically trusting you because your therefore them for that week... so enevitalbly I picked Kids Camp.. so because Im not gonna have to pay for Rev this year, I am going to go on two missions trips this summer. I KNOW CRAZY RIGHT?? well I hope it will be good, It should be a very full summer! Ruthy will be having the baby and I should be here for that... If all goes as planned... then the missions trips then Kids Camp... WOW Im excited... I know that some areas of the summer are gonna be hard, coming in contact with certain people in certain places but its gonna be ok I think.. It really is.... but I have yet to start any of those reports but Im not gonna even try to start anything until after 11 30 ... cuz theres new gilmore girls then friends right after that.. yeah Wish me luck!