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So I stopped by my sister's house on my way home from class tonight... and she wasn't there. I started to cry a little at the thought of her leaving. I'm happy for her as long as she's happy with this big move she's making. But I'm going to miss not having her less than a mile away. I'm just so accustomed to calling her up when I'm pissed off at my mom, going to her house just to hang out or borrow a DVD from her massive collection, and just overall random things. She won't even be here for one more weekend... she's leaving early, early in the AM on Saturday. She's never been more than 20 miles away from me, and now she'll be 1200. It's just not supposed to be like this. I'm sad about it because we're so close, but at the same time she's thrilled to be moving. So it almost makes me doubt our "closeness." I just wish I knew the reasoning behind this whole thing. Then perhaps I wouldn't be so upset. I just want to hate her for being so selfish, but then again am I really being the selfish one for wanting her to stay in Kentucky just for me?
It just seems like in the past two years since moving to Kentucky, our entire family has fallen apart. My dad left us and my parents subsequently divorced - then it was just my mom, my sister, and I. Throughout that entire ordeal, her and I were pretty much each other's only stable part of the family. Now she's leaving and it'll just be my mom and I. It makes me want to worry now that my mom is next... then I'll be the only one left in this hellhole.
It just seems like in the past two years since moving to Kentucky, our entire family has fallen apart. My dad left us and my parents subsequently divorced - then it was just my mom, my sister, and I. Throughout that entire ordeal, her and I were pretty much each other's only stable part of the family. Now she's leaving and it'll just be my mom and I. It makes me want to worry now that my mom is next... then I'll be the only one left in this hellhole.