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when I woke today I had nothing particular in mind to accomplish. However, as the day has proceeded, and I've wandered about the city of st. augustine, which for the moment is all kinds of greys and greens and browns and absolutely covered in water, I've been recollecting all my debts. Debts involving money yes, but also things I owe people on a personal level (apologies, explanations etc.) and things I owe myself. It really had nothing to do with any concious thought, I simply followed my legs and they led me to some very meaningful places and realizations. I realized, well, in reality, probably re-realized just how much weight I, and undoubtedly the majority of everyone else, carry unconciously. With the wrongs I've righted so far, a weight I was not even aware of ceased. My body, experiencing this wonderful feeling, told my brain to bring more debts to my attention, so that I could relieve myself of them, or so it seems that way, because since I've been recalling alot of things. Then, when thinking of all this, I think about the concept of forgiveness, and its blowing my mind. All I can think is that forgiveness must be the only thing bringing balance to everything. With all that we owe to each other, and everything that we deserve, forgiveness erases it, but you know, in a manner to where you cant even see the smudge marks from where some debt or doubt or trespass' lead used to be. It just makes me love everything, the sort of broad sentiment that might taint this entry for some people but really, I do at this moment, love everything about my life.