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alright, i know i haven't posted in forever but this is what i am feeling as of to day. i am feeling so proud of those of that have just graduated. i feel nothing but happiness for you. next i am feeling disapionted in my self for not be able to do that. next it that i am feel lonely. now anyone who has tracy for a friend please i beg you have her read this. i am feel so lonely. this is because i am an idiot. i had the most perfect relationship whith the most beautiful, understanding, kindest, utterly perfect girl and i through it away so forgive me with not being able to cope with that. so her is the real story of what happened. tracy went out with aa then friend edward and then i blew my top for no reason destroyed the beauty that was us. this was m fault at there is nothing that i wouldn't give for one more day with her in my arms. i loved her, and i still do love her. now i know that none of this will change what has happened or what is today. but i need to say it and i think that she needs to say it. thanx. congrats to all my friends again. signing off.
chris loya
chris loya