blah blah blah
So, things have sorta sucked the last few days. But, whatever, what can you do?
I try too hard to hold on to people that don't deserve it. I'm not going to beg you to stay, but if you leave, it's gonna tear me apart. You know how you are. Don't make promises you can't keep.
I have been writing a lot from all this though. Here's something, I guess...
And so it started
a long night
A comedy
Movie theater popcorn lined the seats
and our smiles were more genuine than they've been in years
4 hours driving
the same old routes
You were right when you said we all have shields
4 hours driving
to break yours down
seems you only ever open up to an open road
We saw a plane on the street
Nose pointed toward the ground
And the spot where a child was lost
Drove past a bakery and you named a cake
and a few streets
you weren't quite sure how you knew
Best friends
A phrase we've come to learn
Hurts too bad to misuse
and even worse to lose
I don't know why I ever doubted you
You always act with purpose
You always know what to do
whether thats the truth
or me just forcing myself to believe so
Maybe I'll never know
I dropped you off and you said,
"see you at breakfast
its your big two-one"
then I turned the radio up and tried to choke back the tears
but it seemed as though every word was so personal
with every opening of my mouth, emotion came roaring out
each note screamed what was building up inside
and everything sounded so fucking sincere
Yeah, I'm an emo baby, but it gets the point across. It could only mean half as much to one other person.
So, I had one of those really weird grown up thoughts today. I thought about whether or not a boy would be a good mother in the future, and if I don't see them being a good enough mother, would that factor into whether or not I would date someone at this time in my life? This is the point in some people's lives where they are starting to get serious, and me, I haven't even been in a serious relationship. It's not like I haven't been trying either. Just never seems to happen. Point is, I know some boys that would be amazing mothers, and can't wait to be, so its just so weird to me, because thats such an intrinsicly hetero thing to think about, the mothering capabilities. Weird. Totally not considering any of this yet, but eventually, I guess.
I also started a flickr account so that I could share some of my photos. If only I knew they had an monthly upload limit, I would have either shrunk the photo sizes or put up just the awesome ones. Right now its just the first 36 pictures I found. The first few are of my cousin that I took early today. They are pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. Let me know what you think of them on here or on there. Really doesn't matter.
Here's the link: PHOTOS!!!
That's about all now. I'm sure I have more ramblings, but I can't think of anything now.
I try too hard to hold on to people that don't deserve it. I'm not going to beg you to stay, but if you leave, it's gonna tear me apart. You know how you are. Don't make promises you can't keep.
I have been writing a lot from all this though. Here's something, I guess...
And so it started
a long night
A comedy
Movie theater popcorn lined the seats
and our smiles were more genuine than they've been in years
4 hours driving
the same old routes
You were right when you said we all have shields
4 hours driving
to break yours down
seems you only ever open up to an open road
We saw a plane on the street
Nose pointed toward the ground
And the spot where a child was lost
Drove past a bakery and you named a cake
and a few streets
you weren't quite sure how you knew
Best friends
A phrase we've come to learn
Hurts too bad to misuse
and even worse to lose
I don't know why I ever doubted you
You always act with purpose
You always know what to do
whether thats the truth
or me just forcing myself to believe so
Maybe I'll never know
I dropped you off and you said,
"see you at breakfast
its your big two-one"
then I turned the radio up and tried to choke back the tears
but it seemed as though every word was so personal
with every opening of my mouth, emotion came roaring out
each note screamed what was building up inside
and everything sounded so fucking sincere
Yeah, I'm an emo baby, but it gets the point across. It could only mean half as much to one other person.
So, I had one of those really weird grown up thoughts today. I thought about whether or not a boy would be a good mother in the future, and if I don't see them being a good enough mother, would that factor into whether or not I would date someone at this time in my life? This is the point in some people's lives where they are starting to get serious, and me, I haven't even been in a serious relationship. It's not like I haven't been trying either. Just never seems to happen. Point is, I know some boys that would be amazing mothers, and can't wait to be, so its just so weird to me, because thats such an intrinsicly hetero thing to think about, the mothering capabilities. Weird. Totally not considering any of this yet, but eventually, I guess.
I also started a flickr account so that I could share some of my photos. If only I knew they had an monthly upload limit, I would have either shrunk the photo sizes or put up just the awesome ones. Right now its just the first 36 pictures I found. The first few are of my cousin that I took early today. They are pretty awesome, if I do say so myself. Let me know what you think of them on here or on there. Really doesn't matter.
Here's the link: PHOTOS!!!
That's about all now. I'm sure I have more ramblings, but I can't think of anything now.