overnight leave
I’m back at home until tomorrow. I was dreaming about something to do with dad when Ann Maree woke me up and asked when I was going or something like that and Kelly heard and she was having a panic attack thinking I was about to have a meeting and leaving for good! Poor girl.
I rang Sally…. Sarah wants to see me but she wasn’t able to see me today…. I talked to her and I just froze when Rusty said it was her on the phone. Sally told me she has been through boyfriends before and is going out with this guy called Tim now which really surprised me; I don’t know why I just always thought she’d go through high school without ‘going out’ with anyone because of her studies and apparently the guy that was after her when I was on the scene she went out with and the family had dinner at their place one time haha she was SOOOO adamant about getting him off her back; apparently all her boyfriends have been on the scene while she was still with someone which doesn’t surprise me. She’s coming in on Monday or Tuesday. She still does Ballet and is going into Visual Design.
I feel dopey with what I want to be. I mean I know it’s a full time job in itself and having a home is another part time job but most people have another full time job on top of that but I just want to be a stay at home mum and maybe work on the side when they are older, as a Life assistant or something like that.
I’m moving out of home ASAP when I get out. I can get disability payments and rent assistants but not youth allowance. I’m looking for a job too. Should do that after I write this.
Little ol’ me has to be strip searched when I get back…. Lovely isn’t it?!?! Oh well it’s not too bad all I have to do is change into a gown, no pat down or internal so it’s not too bad. Desperately need to buy some cigarettes though.
Chris came to visit me on Thursday and he brought Roses which was really sweet of him. He’s coming again soon. They are talking about discharge this week and Beth still hasn’t talked to my old doctor about his diagnosis! I’m furious because I don’t want the voices and I don’t want these people around me all the time watching me trying to say something that I can’t here, there are like at least 30 in the room with me at any time! That’s not just depression!
I rang Sally…. Sarah wants to see me but she wasn’t able to see me today…. I talked to her and I just froze when Rusty said it was her on the phone. Sally told me she has been through boyfriends before and is going out with this guy called Tim now which really surprised me; I don’t know why I just always thought she’d go through high school without ‘going out’ with anyone because of her studies and apparently the guy that was after her when I was on the scene she went out with and the family had dinner at their place one time haha she was SOOOO adamant about getting him off her back; apparently all her boyfriends have been on the scene while she was still with someone which doesn’t surprise me. She’s coming in on Monday or Tuesday. She still does Ballet and is going into Visual Design.
I feel dopey with what I want to be. I mean I know it’s a full time job in itself and having a home is another part time job but most people have another full time job on top of that but I just want to be a stay at home mum and maybe work on the side when they are older, as a Life assistant or something like that.
I’m moving out of home ASAP when I get out. I can get disability payments and rent assistants but not youth allowance. I’m looking for a job too. Should do that after I write this.
Little ol’ me has to be strip searched when I get back…. Lovely isn’t it?!?! Oh well it’s not too bad all I have to do is change into a gown, no pat down or internal so it’s not too bad. Desperately need to buy some cigarettes though.
Chris came to visit me on Thursday and he brought Roses which was really sweet of him. He’s coming again soon. They are talking about discharge this week and Beth still hasn’t talked to my old doctor about his diagnosis! I’m furious because I don’t want the voices and I don’t want these people around me all the time watching me trying to say something that I can’t here, there are like at least 30 in the room with me at any time! That’s not just depression!