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i spent a week in portland and sf this past week. it was by far one of the best trips i've taken in my life. i ask myself though, why? one response, i was with the person i care for dearly, brianna. i felt as if nothing mattered because i was with her. i truly didn't want to go home because i knew i wouldn't be able to spend as much time with her and get to know her as an individual better. but, i still enjoyed the time we spent together. i saw the trip both as a way to get away from it all and to test our relationship. what i mean is, we didn't get tired of each other, angry, or upset. we may have been frustrated, but we coped with it quite well. i for one didn't feel frustrated. sleeping next to her (even though it was kinda uncomfortable due to it being in the back seat of a standard sedan, was more than i could have imagined. her cuddling next to me, hugging and kissing me reassured me that what i have with her is something beyond special. even her touch upon my face, and neck is something that no other person can imitate. i can't really speak for her since i am not her, but i can say that she also enjoyed our sleepy and cuddling time. each time i'm with her i don't want to leave her side. i know that she is a strong person, maybe even stronger than i, and i don't mind that at all. in fact i embrace it with open arms.
what got me to think was new year's eve when all of us were drinking in the car, and i knew she didn't want to, but she still did. my question, why did she continue? was it to please someone, fit in, attempt to jump out of her bubble? i asked, but i didn't want to push the envelope and have her explain when she maybe can't exactly say why. it was weird though because she even apologized because she was, "frustrated with the situation and everyone." why did she have to do that? it had no purpose, i felt like i was being isolated from her for the possible idea that i was drinking and nearly drunk while she was sober. she has much to teach me, and i to her. but something tells me that she can teach me more than i can due to her personality and talents.
i just can't wait to spend more time with her. she is exponentially someone very special to me.
what got me to think was new year's eve when all of us were drinking in the car, and i knew she didn't want to, but she still did. my question, why did she continue? was it to please someone, fit in, attempt to jump out of her bubble? i asked, but i didn't want to push the envelope and have her explain when she maybe can't exactly say why. it was weird though because she even apologized because she was, "frustrated with the situation and everyone." why did she have to do that? it had no purpose, i felt like i was being isolated from her for the possible idea that i was drinking and nearly drunk while she was sober. she has much to teach me, and i to her. but something tells me that she can teach me more than i can due to her personality and talents.
i just can't wait to spend more time with her. she is exponentially someone very special to me.