third year over
well its now official that im a senior in college. seems like ive learned nothing however. everytime i look back i find myself thinking if college and getting a degree is truly a big matter in life. in society its a different story, but to me personally i cant get over the fact that my degree will probably get me nowhere since there arent jobs that need people in the language field besides teachers. i want to be one, but the situation in california with all the cut backs on education make me worried for my career future.
another subject thats on my mind is life in general. as days pass i realize the fact that i am completely alone in this world. family or friends cannot fill this void that i feel in my life. then i focus on the idea that maybe having a family and a woman in someone's life to call their own is what the real happiness holds. having lots of time on my hands since im STILL looking for a summer job, gets me to think about everything in life. all that i can result in is pessimism. is that a bad thing? honestly, can someone tell me that there is no positivity in this world now? is the media truly getting to my mind with all the negative reports on disasters and possible tragic situations in the future?
the government is another issue i have with. when re-reading 1984 for the fifth time, this time however in french, i began to think about how much the government really knows. what are their TRUE intentions in society in respect to helping everyone. is it just that they attempt to feign the idea of helping, but simultaneously fucking us over for the benefit of their pocketbooks? 100% of all the legislators are millionaires. thats what really bothers the beans out of me. instead they should be getting paid the same amount as teachers so that they can truly feel what it is like to struggle in life, therefore changing their perspective on life and societal issues, not to mention the pureness of their acts and the future.
this whole world is corrupt with the fucking idea of capitalism. sometimes believing that making us all equal would keep us in line. instead of greed, working together to create a better world would make the world safer, and more sustainable. oil companies that work alongside legislators to campaign for more exploration, instead of funding more on alternative energy, gets at me. it irks me to think that just because you want to retain a hold on the world for your benefit and the benefit of other rich people is fucked up. just because of what your predecessors did does not allow you to continue your dominance over us. this is fucking slavery, yet the government does not intervene because they too have interests in the same field.
im going to get my mind off of things by watching a movie. fuck this government and all it stands for. i want to become a self sufficient farmer and get rid of everything else in life, raise a family, and live in peace without the human condition of greed and over consumerism.
another subject thats on my mind is life in general. as days pass i realize the fact that i am completely alone in this world. family or friends cannot fill this void that i feel in my life. then i focus on the idea that maybe having a family and a woman in someone's life to call their own is what the real happiness holds. having lots of time on my hands since im STILL looking for a summer job, gets me to think about everything in life. all that i can result in is pessimism. is that a bad thing? honestly, can someone tell me that there is no positivity in this world now? is the media truly getting to my mind with all the negative reports on disasters and possible tragic situations in the future?
the government is another issue i have with. when re-reading 1984 for the fifth time, this time however in french, i began to think about how much the government really knows. what are their TRUE intentions in society in respect to helping everyone. is it just that they attempt to feign the idea of helping, but simultaneously fucking us over for the benefit of their pocketbooks? 100% of all the legislators are millionaires. thats what really bothers the beans out of me. instead they should be getting paid the same amount as teachers so that they can truly feel what it is like to struggle in life, therefore changing their perspective on life and societal issues, not to mention the pureness of their acts and the future.
this whole world is corrupt with the fucking idea of capitalism. sometimes believing that making us all equal would keep us in line. instead of greed, working together to create a better world would make the world safer, and more sustainable. oil companies that work alongside legislators to campaign for more exploration, instead of funding more on alternative energy, gets at me. it irks me to think that just because you want to retain a hold on the world for your benefit and the benefit of other rich people is fucked up. just because of what your predecessors did does not allow you to continue your dominance over us. this is fucking slavery, yet the government does not intervene because they too have interests in the same field.
im going to get my mind off of things by watching a movie. fuck this government and all it stands for. i want to become a self sufficient farmer and get rid of everything else in life, raise a family, and live in peace without the human condition of greed and over consumerism.