It gets better after High School.. Oh, Peter!
He told me that life gets better after High School... he lied to me.
When the High School ends, the problems just begin. Why? Well... let me see why? Maybe it's because it's time to make your own decisions. It's time to take a serious look on your life and start it alone. Some people start their life as students; others start their carreer; third ones are starting their new family. Then the children come into your life and all of a sudden you have to be a mommy and a wife. Oh, and you have to work at the same time, because otherwise you just feel useless. Sometimess I want to go back to that night, weird it may seems. I want to just look at his eyes again, his smile and.... just to be that average teenage girl again. That girl's big problem was only to deal with her newfound abiliy and making her grades in school better.
But that night changed everything.
The night of the Homecoming.
When I met him.
When he saved me.
I didn't know how the life is gonna turn out then. What's gonna happen after he saved me. What happened after I fell in love it him. What happened after I found out we're related and... how my feelings for him never changed. I fought with them and I lost the battle. Then after the Apocalipse (sorta) happened, I started my study in Univeristy. I met new people, new friends.... some of them that''s gonna stay forever... like Kay for example. She's one of the best things happened in my life. She helped me. A lot. To accept my feelings for Peter and not to fight with them. She supported me.
Then I met Isaac.... and then Lydia.... and all of a sudden life got weirder as it seems. However, I've made it.
....and then I got pregnant... with the twins... and everything got so complicated. I wasn't ready. Peter was apparently, but he left the decision on me... so we kept them....and then we got married. Yeah, I know. Keep the truth of my real family hidden forever. Forever living in a lie....and constantly worried that someone may find out.... but nope. I chose it. Peter and I both chose it. Was life got better after that, Peter? Maybe, but it lost his simplicity forever.
Then the twins were born - Catherine and Elizabeth. So I put my worries aside. Just suppresed them.... for their own good and I've become the mother they need. I've never felt sorry about that. Just when I thought my life was getting ordinary....
...then I met Petey. A kid from another time, lost in ours and he changed my life.... maybe in a bit, but he did... Then I found out my life was never going to be ordinary, no matter how hard I've tried. Just then I realized I was pregnant with Pete Johnathan and Kay and I started the New Company. Then I met Annie and Maya. Angela and I tried to forget our diferencies and start it off again, all because of Peter. We both want him happy....
...and then my kids came back from the future and that Catherine's wish to kill her own brother, cuz of a dream she had. Her eyes were so like Peter's. She looked just like him when he wants to protect me from something dangerous and she wasn't thinking. It took us time to convince her that everything will be alright... but she stayed even after Pete was born. She fell in love and has a kid of her own now and as far as I know she lives alone and suffering. She never called me back. I don't know what's happening to her. All I can get from the other side of the phone is silence, but I know something's wrong. I can feel it. I hope she's gonna be okay... cuz she's my kid and I really care about her...
So, Peter... my love... are you sure the life got better after High School for me? For us?
I sometimes feel my life as a rollercoaster and I just want to get off of it sometimes. Just to take a deep breath... Take a break... and then maybe, I can jump in again.