Dear Diary...
Dear Diary...
I never thought I'd say this, but I'm tired.. I'm tired of everything and I hate that feeling. I can be strong, I know I can do it. I have to! I know I have to fight and but I just couldn't make it yesterday. It's not Peter's fault that I always yell and sob in front of him. It's not his fault that I feel so broken. But.. I kinda feel lonely and I want him, I expected him to fix me. I don't know how and I don't know why, but I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel like, I don't know... I'm ready to jump any moment now.
Like this wasn't enough, Mel felt bad yesterday and they had to take her to the hospital. I still don't have any news from her. That's driving me crazy ! I want to scream, but I know it's useless! I won't help her in this way! I just need her to be okay! Is that too much to ask?
Screw it! I can't even fall asleep. I went to see Kay and guess what? She was wounded! But luckily I was there in time so she can use my power and get better. Shit! I'm so sick of this! I think everybody around me suffer and I can't take it anymore! I really can't, damn it! I want something good to happen already! Something, just to make me feel better!
Now I'm lying in my bed, well Peter's bed... ok our bed in his apartment. Ok - our apartment. Fluffs is sleeping and purring close to me and I'm just staring through the window. I can't sleep. I can't sleep at all and he is out there, helping people. I just... I want him to help me now... Peter.
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Claire
I never thought I'd say this, but I'm tired.. I'm tired of everything and I hate that feeling. I can be strong, I know I can do it. I have to! I know I have to fight and but I just couldn't make it yesterday. It's not Peter's fault that I always yell and sob in front of him. It's not his fault that I feel so broken. But.. I kinda feel lonely and I want him, I expected him to fix me. I don't know how and I don't know why, but I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel like, I don't know... I'm ready to jump any moment now.
Like this wasn't enough, Mel felt bad yesterday and they had to take her to the hospital. I still don't have any news from her. That's driving me crazy ! I want to scream, but I know it's useless! I won't help her in this way! I just need her to be okay! Is that too much to ask?
Screw it! I can't even fall asleep. I went to see Kay and guess what? She was wounded! But luckily I was there in time so she can use my power and get better. Shit! I'm so sick of this! I think everybody around me suffer and I can't take it anymore! I really can't, damn it! I want something good to happen already! Something, just to make me feel better!
Now I'm lying in my bed, well Peter's bed... ok our bed in his apartment. Ok - our apartment. Fluffs is sleeping and purring close to me and I'm just staring through the window. I can't sleep. I can't sleep at all and he is out there, helping people. I just... I want him to help me now... Peter.
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Claire