ive done all i can, to stand on the steps with my heart in my hand
So today in class, we were talking about different death penalties and uri brought up suicide and like everyone was like "oh shit, shut up stop talking"---- and sonya final said saomthing to try to change the subject and ari and chelsea were sitting next to each other and they were like "could we please stop talking about this you guys" and like no one got the picture so chelsea eventually cracked and got up and just left the classroom and ari followed her and it was just so sad because everyday i see chelsea and shes fine but its so surreal to actually see other people reflect on bret and its sad....its like--you didnt forget--but its like its such a sensitive subject and AFTER she left, people started to get the picture and me and mel were like i cant believe these people are so inconsiderate to forget about something like that and we felt really REALLY bad for chelsea and like everyone who knew what was going on were pretty quiet and it was just really.....sad......and Mr Nie doesnt know about bret so he kept pushing the subject and were all like no shut up but he didnt---it was just really surreal-----but that was before break and after it got better and people kind of forgot about it---but it was just really depressing for awhile...
This weekend is a 3 day weekend and im sooo excited.---and after this only 4 more weeks---and since i dont have my job anymore-- i can actually go to homewood days at night and not have to sell glow sticks which im really happy about----AND my mom will be out of town so i MIGHT have some people over one night?!?!
P.S.--Lillian came into town this week and me, her, kelly t, and megan hung out for a little while and we all used to hang out like in 8th grade and i forgot how much fun i have with those guys, and me and abby have been hanging out alot more and we were really good friends in 7th grade so im happy that im hanging out with some of my junior high friends and that were still friends... i just wish that, like, everyone from junior high and freshmen and sophmore year were still friends....like my best friend.....but it does have to work both ways and its not right now and ive done all i can do and im hoping that hell let go of this fight (again)-but probably not right?
But since school, i havent had alot of time to do anything at all except on friday and saturday and i have been doing something every weekend on both those nights so i guess im not missing out on much except the weekdays, but whatever its cool---ill make up for it one day this summer
This weekend is a 3 day weekend and im sooo excited.---and after this only 4 more weeks---and since i dont have my job anymore-- i can actually go to homewood days at night and not have to sell glow sticks which im really happy about----AND my mom will be out of town so i MIGHT have some people over one night?!?!
P.S.--Lillian came into town this week and me, her, kelly t, and megan hung out for a little while and we all used to hang out like in 8th grade and i forgot how much fun i have with those guys, and me and abby have been hanging out alot more and we were really good friends in 7th grade so im happy that im hanging out with some of my junior high friends and that were still friends... i just wish that, like, everyone from junior high and freshmen and sophmore year were still friends....like my best friend.....but it does have to work both ways and its not right now and ive done all i can do and im hoping that hell let go of this fight (again)-but probably not right?
But since school, i havent had alot of time to do anything at all except on friday and saturday and i have been doing something every weekend on both those nights so i guess im not missing out on much except the weekdays, but whatever its cool---ill make up for it one day this summer