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i hurt incredibly bad and really dont want to go back to jersey.
if you are reading this, please understand, i have had nothing to do but listen to my own thoughts
and theres nothing for me in jersey. no one who could hold me when im down because no one is ever around.
the past few days, i've been in california. analyzing where eveyrthing went wrong. well of course its my fault. i fucked everything up, its all i know how to do. but i honestly for the life of me can not pinpoint what i did to lose a friend and someone i held so high on so many levels. someone i would do anything for, and i always thought they would do the same for me.
well i was wrong
what a fucking suprise.
they can cut me out of their life without a second thought
just like everyone else...
all i have for me in jersey is a few key sisters that despite their best efforts to convince me of otherwise, would be so much better with out me existing and an awesome boyfriend who will soon come to his senses and realize that he deserves a million and one times better than i could ever be.
everyone else i need to stay far away from. i cant keep feeling this hurt.
if you are reading this, please understand, i have had nothing to do but listen to my own thoughts
and theres nothing for me in jersey. no one who could hold me when im down because no one is ever around.
the past few days, i've been in california. analyzing where eveyrthing went wrong. well of course its my fault. i fucked everything up, its all i know how to do. but i honestly for the life of me can not pinpoint what i did to lose a friend and someone i held so high on so many levels. someone i would do anything for, and i always thought they would do the same for me.
well i was wrong
what a fucking suprise.
they can cut me out of their life without a second thought
just like everyone else...
all i have for me in jersey is a few key sisters that despite their best efforts to convince me of otherwise, would be so much better with out me existing and an awesome boyfriend who will soon come to his senses and realize that he deserves a million and one times better than i could ever be.
everyone else i need to stay far away from. i cant keep feeling this hurt.