the sleeper has awaken

[acidsmurf]

well. today my mom woke me up @ 5pm, i was still really tired but oh well. i went 3 days of no sleep - my first major speed run in a year lol. but now that i did that and slept i feel cleansed and fresher - so the ritual was succesful

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[dwazebroek]

I have to say I felt the same way you did about school at once but really...you're going to come to realize that as much of a bullshit instituion school really is, you're going to have to get through it if you want to live comfortably throughout life. I really hate school and I do agree they're trying to mold people into one type but...if you're really intelligent the best thing to do is grin and bear with it just to get through it and be able to live ultimately better. Education=money and money is, sadly, what makes the world go round, as crappy as that is.

[acidsmurf]

yea. i know giving them that shit eating grin while thinking about what i'd like to say to them would be the way to go ultimately..but im too proud to let them make me cover myself up and go along with the bs - if that makes sense. If i was in classes that i truly wanted to be in - like i would take in freetime, this would be killer - or even the same classes just with out all these rules and regulations and being treated like a guinea pig, i'd be much more up to it. but yea..damn.. your right - education leads to money and money does make the world go round...it is sad. The way i feel in my heart is that money and possessions dont really matter - sure if i was homeless i would have to give up photography and all this stuff....but i'd be able to spend my time enjoying life and nature, taking in the world . i could find enough cans to cash in to buy food for a day + cigz and all. i dunno - in my head i think i could handle it - it would be an adventure without a set destination. I do it alot - going out with out a plan. like when i

[dwazebroek]

Yeah, it's an experience and I'm sure it seems fun but it really isn't, and you lose a lot of things like fun and friends and say goodbye to ever having a chance of getting laid by anyone who isn't a crackwhore again. Society sucks, but that's what we live in. Believe me being homeless isn't as easy as a typical domesticated American would think it is. Americans are lazy and bratty by nature (no offense, I think we're all like that). It's really, REALLY hard for any American used to all their gadgets and gismos to survive without them for too long. Since it's summer you should probably try the homeless thing out for like a week or two and see if you like it enough to actually try to do it for the rest of your life. I've done it before and it really blows. I felt the same way you did too. I thought "how great it would be without rules and living in an adventurous world!" But then between all the people wanting to kill/kick your ass for no reason on the street, hunger, boredom, and just all around general uncomfortability I was wishing

[acidsmurf]

oh - i know its not easy. i know homeless people , they're some of the greatest people and its sad they fucked their life up like that - but the freedom does have a certain appeal - and perhaps your right and i dont understand...if i lived in a place with actual stuff i would try it - but i'm out in nature -.- i plan on using my trips to observe and learn about myself and of human nature - and just kind of explore what im going for with this life..maybe i'll come to a hypothesis...maybe

[dwazebroek]

Yeah, I know some homeless people too and they really are quite amazing but it's sad because they're so sad that they take all the money they make and spend it on alchohol or some other sort of drug to dull it out, so they're left just hungry and sad. and yeah, it does seem REALLY cool. Not in America though. Honestly I wish I could like go to some part of Asia or something and just live off the land in the jungles and shit and look all awesome and have some crazy weapon to kill animals and eat them. America is bland and trashy. When you think about it, it probably wouldn't be nearly as hard to live in nature in a place like that instead of a place like America, because in America living off the land means eating garbage and begging and in a place with so much wildlife and nature there are fruits and vegetables you can pick and animals to hunt and lots and lots of space. It's shitty how America was made for only one type of person - the typical robotic, moral white go-getter brainwashed by corporate media that they have pretty much

[acidsmurf]

yea...hmm..there are a shit load of deer up here- the nature police people (forgot their acronym) would try and throw my ass in jail or something if they caught me slaughtering a deer with a machette tho :'. damn... america is the greatest country on earth and at the same time a fucked up piece of shit... all it seems to me is a place run by a 'mafia' consisting of rich old white fucks. They do things that work for companies and industrys so they can get some kick backs 'n shit. and dont get me started on the drug war - that just makes my blood boil when i get into all the fucking flaws in it.... i would want to be homeless in a place where i can atleast find some fucking cans tho - they're 10cents each up here man =) haha. when we need drug money thats what we do :P ... :sigh:

[dwazebroek]

hahahahaha. Well if you were in Asia instead of collecting cans you could just find an opium field or something

[acidsmurf]

i thought japan was terribly overpopulated?

[dwazebroek]

no, that's china. china is gross. japanese people are hot and awesome.

[acidsmurf]

are you completely sure? japan is like the size of california and has a huge population for its size..... there's very little living space.... ~.`

[dwazebroek]

yeah, i'm sure, I know a few awesome japanese people who used to live there. it's true it's a small space for all those people but Tokyo, where a huge majority of the population live, is pretty much all skyscrapers housing thousands and thousands of residents each. plus their houses outside the city aren't greedily huge like they are in suburban america.

[acidsmurf]

ahh alright then , viddi well