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i just got home a little bittle ago. spent about 4 hours at ryans house hanging out with his brother and karen.
it was lovely.
ryan wouldve been 20 today.... or. yesterday technically. and i wanted to do something. i didnt know if going there would be okay but as soon as i got to college heights i just headed over. karen was happy to see me, i was happy to see her. we sat and talked about everything for a while. spoke of ryan, shared memories. i told her about my concerns and troubles and she told me hers. they were remarkably similar.
it was really really great. i love that family and im so glad that ive managed to become closer with them. i knew them a bit when ryan was alive, but he was really good at keeping his friends and family separate the whole time we were friends. now it feels like a gap has been bridged.
its been 8 months since hes been gone. it feels like nothing has changed. and it feels like everything imaginable has changed.
manual kid, i miss you.
it was lovely.
ryan wouldve been 20 today.... or. yesterday technically. and i wanted to do something. i didnt know if going there would be okay but as soon as i got to college heights i just headed over. karen was happy to see me, i was happy to see her. we sat and talked about everything for a while. spoke of ryan, shared memories. i told her about my concerns and troubles and she told me hers. they were remarkably similar.
it was really really great. i love that family and im so glad that ive managed to become closer with them. i knew them a bit when ryan was alive, but he was really good at keeping his friends and family separate the whole time we were friends. now it feels like a gap has been bridged.
its been 8 months since hes been gone. it feels like nothing has changed. and it feels like everything imaginable has changed.
manual kid, i miss you.