Am I too old to post song lyrics as a title
This year is going by fast. I feel like I did so much more last year, and last year we were in a lock down. I think I feel this way every year though.
A lot of negative thoughts lately. I feel surrounded by negativity but I can't tell if it's me projecting or actual negativity. I always think about how many times I've been told to get out of my own head, but I don't know how. Nothing is as big of a deal as I make it out to be, but when people tell me that I feel like they're hiding. It's human nature but I can't help but I can't help but feel as though I'm right. I think I'm pretty well in tune with people's emotions. Whenever I decide to confront people about a feeling I'm getting I'm usually told I'm wrong though. I think most people are hiding. I'm not one to argue though.
I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now, I feel like I'm floating. I'm happiest when I'm alone. That's lonely though, so I'm not that happy. I do like being alone though, I can be me and no one says I'm doing it wrong. I don't have to hide how I am. It's easy. I can be tired and low energy or happy and excited, and it's fine. I can do the weird things I like to do that make me feel good. I'm not bothering anyone, I'm not too much. Maybe I'm selfish. It takes a lot to feel normal, I internalize a lot of stuff. I make a lot of accommodations for people when I am with them. It's probably not uncommon but it is exhausting in my opinion.
I wish I had some stuff to look forward to. Coming home right now is kind of a drag. I think I just get on my husbands nerves. It's hard to come home and feel like the person you really want to see mostly doesn't like you. It's not always this way, but it's been bad lately. I can't tell if it's me or not though. I wonder sometimes if I'm the person he thought I would be. I dunno. I think I'm pretty disappointing once you get to know me. I don't like getting super close to people because of this anyway.
I need to pretend I'm feeling okay but I'm bad at it.
A lot of negative thoughts lately. I feel surrounded by negativity but I can't tell if it's me projecting or actual negativity. I always think about how many times I've been told to get out of my own head, but I don't know how. Nothing is as big of a deal as I make it out to be, but when people tell me that I feel like they're hiding. It's human nature but I can't help but I can't help but feel as though I'm right. I think I'm pretty well in tune with people's emotions. Whenever I decide to confront people about a feeling I'm getting I'm usually told I'm wrong though. I think most people are hiding. I'm not one to argue though.
I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now, I feel like I'm floating. I'm happiest when I'm alone. That's lonely though, so I'm not that happy. I do like being alone though, I can be me and no one says I'm doing it wrong. I don't have to hide how I am. It's easy. I can be tired and low energy or happy and excited, and it's fine. I can do the weird things I like to do that make me feel good. I'm not bothering anyone, I'm not too much. Maybe I'm selfish. It takes a lot to feel normal, I internalize a lot of stuff. I make a lot of accommodations for people when I am with them. It's probably not uncommon but it is exhausting in my opinion.
I wish I had some stuff to look forward to. Coming home right now is kind of a drag. I think I just get on my husbands nerves. It's hard to come home and feel like the person you really want to see mostly doesn't like you. It's not always this way, but it's been bad lately. I can't tell if it's me or not though. I wonder sometimes if I'm the person he thought I would be. I dunno. I think I'm pretty disappointing once you get to know me. I don't like getting super close to people because of this anyway.
I need to pretend I'm feeling okay but I'm bad at it.