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feel a slight compulsion to write on this lazy saturday afternono. not in order to share any kind of update on my life or such, more so just to write.
i suppose this is urged on by the fact i don't write any more, nor escape in or discover good music, nor create marks on canvas with paint that didn't exist before i came along.
i suppose it is true with me at least, that i don't consume myself with those things when life is sailing along fine. so there's my update. life is sailing along fine.
except my urges to do those things are coming back stronger than ever, and the fact i left all my painting equipment back in new zealand and that dean re-stocked all my painting equipment for me in christmas presents [god, i love him] makes me want to desperately get back into it.
and our apartment is starting to come together now, there's still a long way to go, but me being myself is more obsessed now about the incredibly blank walls and lack of artwork anywhere in the house. oh, there are a few smaller pieces on shelves and such - but i'm well aware that behind me there is a nice big white wall that is screaming for a huge canvas plastered with green, gold and bronze hues to be hung. so my next project [along with the rest] is to get a table for painting....dean got me an awesome easel, but most of my work is done with the canvas flat either on the floor or a table seeing as it's a little more aggressive than polite pretty portraits or landscapes or such.
anyway. i've been reading too much again, which is good but exhausting. a never-ending supply of books by dean working in a bookstore isn't helping us. more bookcases need to be purchased, also.
kind of missed christmas and new years this year. blinked and it was gone and that's pretty much alright with me. worked right through it anyways. whilst everyone else is winding down for the year and having time off from work, us charity suckers are flat out. 'christmas spirit' and all that crap seems to make people want to give away their money more......still loving with with msf though. watched some movie last night with some guy who said 'i'm still doing work with doctors without borders'. i love finding work references in films...
learning spanish [kind of] this year and have a few other plans in the works. two bridesmaid gigs coming up also...not sure about kelly's wedding, when, where...she's so vague on details, i'm much more [obviously] excited about my sisters wedding instead. she hasn't decided if she wants just me as the maid of honour, or if she's going to have me as maid of honour and then three bridesmaids....i'm desperate for her to have the bridesmaids too. i certainly don't want to be the only one standing up there with her! but either way, i'm ridiculously happy and excited for her and can't wait for all the wedding planning to start. who knew we were so girlie?
my house smells of brand new leather, due to the brand new leather couch that was delivered yesterday. i love the smell of brand new leather. add it to my list.
oh well. dean's home in two and a half hours.
and my heart still beats.
i suppose this is urged on by the fact i don't write any more, nor escape in or discover good music, nor create marks on canvas with paint that didn't exist before i came along.
i suppose it is true with me at least, that i don't consume myself with those things when life is sailing along fine. so there's my update. life is sailing along fine.
except my urges to do those things are coming back stronger than ever, and the fact i left all my painting equipment back in new zealand and that dean re-stocked all my painting equipment for me in christmas presents [god, i love him] makes me want to desperately get back into it.
and our apartment is starting to come together now, there's still a long way to go, but me being myself is more obsessed now about the incredibly blank walls and lack of artwork anywhere in the house. oh, there are a few smaller pieces on shelves and such - but i'm well aware that behind me there is a nice big white wall that is screaming for a huge canvas plastered with green, gold and bronze hues to be hung. so my next project [along with the rest] is to get a table for painting....dean got me an awesome easel, but most of my work is done with the canvas flat either on the floor or a table seeing as it's a little more aggressive than polite pretty portraits or landscapes or such.
anyway. i've been reading too much again, which is good but exhausting. a never-ending supply of books by dean working in a bookstore isn't helping us. more bookcases need to be purchased, also.
kind of missed christmas and new years this year. blinked and it was gone and that's pretty much alright with me. worked right through it anyways. whilst everyone else is winding down for the year and having time off from work, us charity suckers are flat out. 'christmas spirit' and all that crap seems to make people want to give away their money more......still loving with with msf though. watched some movie last night with some guy who said 'i'm still doing work with doctors without borders'. i love finding work references in films...
learning spanish [kind of] this year and have a few other plans in the works. two bridesmaid gigs coming up also...not sure about kelly's wedding, when, where...she's so vague on details, i'm much more [obviously] excited about my sisters wedding instead. she hasn't decided if she wants just me as the maid of honour, or if she's going to have me as maid of honour and then three bridesmaids....i'm desperate for her to have the bridesmaids too. i certainly don't want to be the only one standing up there with her! but either way, i'm ridiculously happy and excited for her and can't wait for all the wedding planning to start. who knew we were so girlie?
my house smells of brand new leather, due to the brand new leather couch that was delivered yesterday. i love the smell of brand new leather. add it to my list.
oh well. dean's home in two and a half hours.
and my heart still beats.