:::::Look at me now, I'm so vacant:::::
So I'm pretty much shitfuck broke for the next 12 days. So exciting. I think I'm going to invest in a mass supply of ramen and just live off of that. I don't really have a choice. Food is the one thing I can change to buy... Its not worth going into debt over, you know? Ramen is like 3 for a dollar or some shit like that. Thats like....a dollar a day! Hizzah. I just hope I get some birthday money this year. >.< I could really use some. :D
So, yesterday Candice, Danie and I went to the zoo. It was loads of neat fun. I like zee animals. Although, the kids everywhere thing still bugs me. Seriously, they should make a zoo for adults. Is that so much to ask for? Maybe next time, I'll go on a Monday morning in fall when all the kids are in school. xP
Then after that I went to Rickys and we had a campfire. We made nommy mellows (I can finally cook them properly), and talked a bunch. Later we laid down the dock and just cuddled and of course I cried a shitload. I still dont have all the answers I need from him, but he doesn't know either. And he's not one to completely empty his feelings to me. So when asked "So what are you thinking" I completely tell him everything on my mind. I ask him he goes "Theres a lot of bats out tonight" or "I need to put more wood on the fire". The one thing that I didn't really want to hear was when I asked him "So are you looking for another girlfriend" or something like that, he goes "I dont know I havent met someone yet. But maybe i'd get one". Um.....WTF? Right after that I asked if he still loved me and said of course. I ask him why he would date someone else when he still loves me and I still love him and he said "I dont know that doesnt make much sense I know". Ug. Then he started talking about this one girl that tried to make out with him or something when she was drunk. He said he didn't because shes "too tall". .... But would he have if she wasn't? Probably. Uggggggg. But then after the campfire we went into his room and he was right about that whole thing. I can't describe it. But honestly, I don't feel bad about it. I just hope he doesn't too. Because if he does, then he might want to distance himself from me even more....But he did say he would hang out with me on my birthday :D So, I have something to look forward to I suppose. I just have zero money to really do anything. I wanna see Get Smart with him but I don't have money for tickets. Woe is me.
Sometimes people just don't understand. Fucking Antonio was totally being an ass today. I'm glad Joe stuck up for me and said "Obviously you've never been in love before". Antonio is like "You're like standing in front of a train waiting for it to hit you when everyone is telling you to get off the track". Joe looks at him and goes "But do you fall in love with trains?". It was awesome. :P He was surprisingly nice to me today. If you don't know how rare that is, than you probably don't understand how amazingly shocking it is.
Man, I took a Benedryl today because my face literally was just completely fucked up. Now I can breathe fine, but I was drowsy all day at work and could have fell asleep in about 5 seconds anytime. The drive home was horrendous. I tried hard not to blink because I could have fallen asleep. Thats how tired I was. Haha. Then I got home and took a 2.5 hour nap. At least I can now slightly function.
Ummmm yeah. Confined to room for the next two weeks. Hizzah!
So, yesterday Candice, Danie and I went to the zoo. It was loads of neat fun. I like zee animals. Although, the kids everywhere thing still bugs me. Seriously, they should make a zoo for adults. Is that so much to ask for? Maybe next time, I'll go on a Monday morning in fall when all the kids are in school. xP
Then after that I went to Rickys and we had a campfire. We made nommy mellows (I can finally cook them properly), and talked a bunch. Later we laid down the dock and just cuddled and of course I cried a shitload. I still dont have all the answers I need from him, but he doesn't know either. And he's not one to completely empty his feelings to me. So when asked "So what are you thinking" I completely tell him everything on my mind. I ask him he goes "Theres a lot of bats out tonight" or "I need to put more wood on the fire". The one thing that I didn't really want to hear was when I asked him "So are you looking for another girlfriend" or something like that, he goes "I dont know I havent met someone yet. But maybe i'd get one". Um.....WTF? Right after that I asked if he still loved me and said of course. I ask him why he would date someone else when he still loves me and I still love him and he said "I dont know that doesnt make much sense I know". Ug. Then he started talking about this one girl that tried to make out with him or something when she was drunk. He said he didn't because shes "too tall". .... But would he have if she wasn't? Probably. Uggggggg. But then after the campfire we went into his room and he was right about that whole thing. I can't describe it. But honestly, I don't feel bad about it. I just hope he doesn't too. Because if he does, then he might want to distance himself from me even more....But he did say he would hang out with me on my birthday :D So, I have something to look forward to I suppose. I just have zero money to really do anything. I wanna see Get Smart with him but I don't have money for tickets. Woe is me.
Sometimes people just don't understand. Fucking Antonio was totally being an ass today. I'm glad Joe stuck up for me and said "Obviously you've never been in love before". Antonio is like "You're like standing in front of a train waiting for it to hit you when everyone is telling you to get off the track". Joe looks at him and goes "But do you fall in love with trains?". It was awesome. :P He was surprisingly nice to me today. If you don't know how rare that is, than you probably don't understand how amazingly shocking it is.
Man, I took a Benedryl today because my face literally was just completely fucked up. Now I can breathe fine, but I was drowsy all day at work and could have fell asleep in about 5 seconds anytime. The drive home was horrendous. I tried hard not to blink because I could have fallen asleep. Thats how tired I was. Haha. Then I got home and took a 2.5 hour nap. At least I can now slightly function.
Ummmm yeah. Confined to room for the next two weeks. Hizzah!