shinny tap shoes
papa is such a silly name..for such an important person. silly silly silly people to be able to joke around with their fathers. i wonder what my life would be like, if i had a "papa", the way i am now. all the times i break down, it's because of him, but if i had it, and he was here, what would he do. i don't know, hold me and tell me he and god loves me. i don't know. i feel hollow and empty, i want to be numb today. i miss my papa, i wonder if he misses me.
my moniter does this strange thing, where it moves weirdly, like it does when my phone starts ringing, except no one is calling. thats the upsetting part. oh well.
islands and peacocks in hostile territory. papa.