"Without Him." Double Drabble. Rated G.
Title: Without Him
Fandom: Cowboy Bebop
Character(s)/Pairing: Spike/Faye
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Word Count: 190
Without Him
She does not know what she will do without him.
Holding onto him is like grabbing smoke - she knows it is futile to even try. She knows that he belongs to no one, that he is not even hers to mourn, but she wants to reach out and grab and find more than wisps of smoke curling around her fingertips. She wants to believe that she matters to him, too.
But inside he is shattered, and she knows that she is not the one who will make him whole again. She knows that however heavy the memory becomes and however cold her blood runs in her veins, she is just another sad soul laying roses on his grave. She never knew him - not really. And her feelings will never be his. He will never want to know her like she so desperately wants to know him.
And she hates how her emotions rule her whenever he's involved, and she hates how thinking of him always makes her seem so maudlin.
The world will move on without him, she realizes.
And that is what frightens her more than anything.
~~~
***Written approx. 1 February 2007
Fandom: Cowboy Bebop
Character(s)/Pairing: Spike/Faye
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Word Count: 190
Without Him
She does not know what she will do without him.
Holding onto him is like grabbing smoke - she knows it is futile to even try. She knows that he belongs to no one, that he is not even hers to mourn, but she wants to reach out and grab and find more than wisps of smoke curling around her fingertips. She wants to believe that she matters to him, too.
But inside he is shattered, and she knows that she is not the one who will make him whole again. She knows that however heavy the memory becomes and however cold her blood runs in her veins, she is just another sad soul laying roses on his grave. She never knew him - not really. And her feelings will never be his. He will never want to know her like she so desperately wants to know him.
And she hates how her emotions rule her whenever he's involved, and she hates how thinking of him always makes her seem so maudlin.
The world will move on without him, she realizes.
And that is what frightens her more than anything.
~~~
***Written approx. 1 February 2007