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Every day I wonder how people feel aboot me. Whether or not they like me as much as I them, or they think I'm an idiot, or a coward, or a prick.
I wonder every day if Stefanie loves me and cares for me as much as I do her. One part of me says "Yes, of course. Just because she isn't showering you with love all day, every day doesn't mean her love isn't as strong." The other part of me remembers a quote someone once told me, "No one ever loves you as much as you love them."
Does Alex understand how much I care for her? How she can come to me no matter WHAT?
Do Damien and Lizzy see that their friendship means as much to me as any of my friends in jersey. More so sometimes. That they can CALL me.
Does Awesome know that he's probably the sweetest, most un-fake person I know? That I respect him more than almost everyone else? That I sometimes envy him?
Does Chris know that I respect him a lot more than most people I meet, and that he's probably the most honest person I've met? That I'm truly sorry for not being a better friend?
This whole post isn't a cry for affirmation of the questions, or pity at all. I'm not looking for people to go "James OF COURSE blah blah blah." So don't take it that way.
These are things I think aboot every day, so why not write them down, maybe it'll clear my head.
I wonder every day if Stefanie loves me and cares for me as much as I do her. One part of me says "Yes, of course. Just because she isn't showering you with love all day, every day doesn't mean her love isn't as strong." The other part of me remembers a quote someone once told me, "No one ever loves you as much as you love them."
Does Alex understand how much I care for her? How she can come to me no matter WHAT?
Do Damien and Lizzy see that their friendship means as much to me as any of my friends in jersey. More so sometimes. That they can CALL me.
Does Awesome know that he's probably the sweetest, most un-fake person I know? That I respect him more than almost everyone else? That I sometimes envy him?
Does Chris know that I respect him a lot more than most people I meet, and that he's probably the most honest person I've met? That I'm truly sorry for not being a better friend?
This whole post isn't a cry for affirmation of the questions, or pity at all. I'm not looking for people to go "James OF COURSE blah blah blah." So don't take it that way.
These are things I think aboot every day, so why not write them down, maybe it'll clear my head.