Feelings
Can't regulate temperature
Head pounding
Eyes stinging
Upset stomach
Running to the toilet
(Am I going to vomit?)
(Or shit my brains out?)
Right calf on the heating pad
Stretching, massaging
Mind racing
Ears ringing
Feet tingling
Everything feels hollow
Everything aches
Did I mention that I want to peel my skin off?
A full body reaction
Unyielding waves of heart ache
Excruciating to sit still
No where to go
Sit in silence
Can't lay down
Feel the bile rise up the throat
The piercing static hum
Every sound magnified
Everything is so sensory clear
And yet everything is so very confusing
Keep breathing
Try
Keep going
Try
Please don't give up
Please
The price of feeling
So noisy
And so empty