self indulgent bullshit
I'm sick of the idea that straight hair is prettier than curls. Just one more thing to make me feel not pretty, which I've been unreasonably fixated on recently...which makes me really angry at myself (which makes me feel worse, naturally).
I've been in such a terrible mood recently. I just feel completely unsure of myself about everything. I'm doubting my writing, which is the most painful thing and really (as emo and stupid as it sounds) tears me apart. And trying to get a job certainly isn't encouraging. If someone had told me that not having a job during highschool was going to make it damn near impossible to find one after, I would have gotten one.
I've been in such a terrible mood recently. I just feel completely unsure of myself about everything. I'm doubting my writing, which is the most painful thing and really (as emo and stupid as it sounds) tears me apart. And trying to get a job certainly isn't encouraging. If someone had told me that not having a job during highschool was going to make it damn near impossible to find one after, I would have gotten one.