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So...
I've decided to break my tradition of not updating my livejournal. I don't know why I haven't updated in a while, maybe it was because I got lazy and didn't want to spend the time updating it, maybe it was because no one ever commented on it, or maybe I'm just so much an introvert that I don't like to express my feelings, but I really don't know.
Anyway, tonight was the Cotillion dance, and as usual, my dancing inept self wasn't really looking forward to it. But as the night rolled on as time tends to do, I realized some things. This is my senior year, and if I have no pictures of myself at all, I will be really disappointed with myself when I grow up. I mean, can you imagine having no record of your time in high school. So I've decided to overturn my phobia of pictures and smile my awkward smile that never looks good anyway if asked. I also realized that these friends of mine are gone for the most part after this year. Even if I go to UF where most of them will go, things will be so different in college that I will miss the good old days of high school. These people I have grown up knowing will either be different or gone, and I just feel like everything could have been different. I could have gotten to know them better, I could have made better friends with them, I feel like I could have done anything other than what I actually have done.
I guess this all just sums up to a big sob story that shows that my senior year has come too quickly and with too many regrets. I love my school, I love my town, and I love the people I have gotten to know, and it will just be so sad to see it all go. This has all been compounded by the fact that this is the weekend I see all my older friends go off to college, and it just hits too close to home that I only have one year left...
I've decided to break my tradition of not updating my livejournal. I don't know why I haven't updated in a while, maybe it was because I got lazy and didn't want to spend the time updating it, maybe it was because no one ever commented on it, or maybe I'm just so much an introvert that I don't like to express my feelings, but I really don't know.
Anyway, tonight was the Cotillion dance, and as usual, my dancing inept self wasn't really looking forward to it. But as the night rolled on as time tends to do, I realized some things. This is my senior year, and if I have no pictures of myself at all, I will be really disappointed with myself when I grow up. I mean, can you imagine having no record of your time in high school. So I've decided to overturn my phobia of pictures and smile my awkward smile that never looks good anyway if asked. I also realized that these friends of mine are gone for the most part after this year. Even if I go to UF where most of them will go, things will be so different in college that I will miss the good old days of high school. These people I have grown up knowing will either be different or gone, and I just feel like everything could have been different. I could have gotten to know them better, I could have made better friends with them, I feel like I could have done anything other than what I actually have done.
I guess this all just sums up to a big sob story that shows that my senior year has come too quickly and with too many regrets. I love my school, I love my town, and I love the people I have gotten to know, and it will just be so sad to see it all go. This has all been compounded by the fact that this is the weekend I see all my older friends go off to college, and it just hits too close to home that I only have one year left...