Fanfic: I have nowhere to go, so accept me then..
a/n: so, it was inspired by that rumor, and also that fancam. Sad isn’t? I just want to feels better by write it in this fanfic. Argh, my first fanfic turn out to this kind of thing TT-TT
and, sorry for my fail English. Feel free to comment and tell if i had mistake/s :)
It’s already our 600th day of debut. Almost 2 years, we spent together as one. As beast. And, it means 600th day we spent with tears and sweat and sleepless night.
Remember your high-school days? Those days, what people called the most unforgettable moment from our life? You made that choice; you want to become a singer. You start to become a trainer, abandon your high school time, when everyone at your age spent it with their friends, and date with their girlfriends. But you, with all of your courage, go to the same building everyday, train hard, and didn’t really care about what your classmate says. You, always make me proud. With your short height, you have the bigger dream than everyone else. But you are not alone that time; you have Kikwang by your side, your own classmate who train at the same roof. It’s not a good thing, because when they choose Kikwang to become a solo singer and you only become his back-dancer, you have to bear a lot of painful words from your classmate, about how stupid you are, train to be a singer but end up become a back-dancer. And you cry, hard. You want to stop back then.
But you, make me proud once again, you still stay strong and try hard. But it getting worst after graduated from high school. It was when your parent asking you to stop and being realistic. They tell you to go to a college, and get a real life. Have a normal life, and abandon your dream. But, you tell them to give you a chance. You said you will become a singer no matter what. You cry a lot at those days, secretly. Because you didn’t want to make your parent, especially your mom worried. Because you are stronger than anyone else.
And that day come. They announced our debut day. It also hard, isn’t? You have to leave Daniel behind. You have to break your promise to debut together. But because he said it’s okay if you debut first, and he will try to follow you one day, you smile and keep going. But, it’s not the end there. When people know about our past, they start to bash at our group. They said we are recycled, we are stupid. It was the hardest time. Our debut is not that easy. We spent too much tears these days. But I think it worth it isn’t? Because it only make us become stronger.
I don’t remember clearly our first win at M-countdown for our song shock. I just remember when I was tried to hold back my tears, because of my image to become a charismatic rapper, I can’t cry. But it’s hard, because when you hug me. I lost my self control, and I started to cry. I still feel embarrassed now, whenever I look at those pictures. But I never regret it. It make me feels warm, to release that tears with you. Sometimes, it feels great to cry.
But I will never forget our second win, for our song Soom. Because I was the first person you hugged back then. I still remember you cry in my shoulder, and I try to become stronger (so I can protect you)., and decided to not cry like I did at our first win. And I made my promise back then. To always be by your side. To cheers you, to make you smile again, whenever you feels weary, just like now.
I know it’s hard. But we already reach this state. We have known as idol now. We are not rookie anymore who will cry over such things like won first at music program. We have to become stronger, isn’t? We have to bear every problem that awaits us. We have to stay strong. But, isn’t it okay? As long as I have you by my side, I will try my best. I’ll do everything. I don’t need anything else. Your smile is enough.
It’s cheesy isn’t?
That’s why I decided to write it down, and not tell you face to face. Because you know me so well, I have a problem with tell someone how I feel. But I hope you understand, and can show me your smile like always. You are not alone, I, and the other member, also b2uty, will always be your side.
p.s Ah, don’t laugh. I will never forgive you if you laugh.
No, Yoseob didn’t laugh nor smile after read that letter. He let that tears fall down, the tears which he held down for a long time. It feels relieved. People who tell cry is useless are wrong. They just too scared to admit it, that they are all weak. Everyone is fragile and weak. What make someone’s strong is when they have someone who care about them. And Yoseob is strong. Because he have Junhyung, who will always accept him whenever he didn’t have anywhere to go.
and, sorry for my fail English. Feel free to comment and tell if i had mistake/s :)
It’s already our 600th day of debut. Almost 2 years, we spent together as one. As beast. And, it means 600th day we spent with tears and sweat and sleepless night.
Remember your high-school days? Those days, what people called the most unforgettable moment from our life? You made that choice; you want to become a singer. You start to become a trainer, abandon your high school time, when everyone at your age spent it with their friends, and date with their girlfriends. But you, with all of your courage, go to the same building everyday, train hard, and didn’t really care about what your classmate says. You, always make me proud. With your short height, you have the bigger dream than everyone else. But you are not alone that time; you have Kikwang by your side, your own classmate who train at the same roof. It’s not a good thing, because when they choose Kikwang to become a solo singer and you only become his back-dancer, you have to bear a lot of painful words from your classmate, about how stupid you are, train to be a singer but end up become a back-dancer. And you cry, hard. You want to stop back then.
But you, make me proud once again, you still stay strong and try hard. But it getting worst after graduated from high school. It was when your parent asking you to stop and being realistic. They tell you to go to a college, and get a real life. Have a normal life, and abandon your dream. But, you tell them to give you a chance. You said you will become a singer no matter what. You cry a lot at those days, secretly. Because you didn’t want to make your parent, especially your mom worried. Because you are stronger than anyone else.
And that day come. They announced our debut day. It also hard, isn’t? You have to leave Daniel behind. You have to break your promise to debut together. But because he said it’s okay if you debut first, and he will try to follow you one day, you smile and keep going. But, it’s not the end there. When people know about our past, they start to bash at our group. They said we are recycled, we are stupid. It was the hardest time. Our debut is not that easy. We spent too much tears these days. But I think it worth it isn’t? Because it only make us become stronger.
I don’t remember clearly our first win at M-countdown for our song shock. I just remember when I was tried to hold back my tears, because of my image to become a charismatic rapper, I can’t cry. But it’s hard, because when you hug me. I lost my self control, and I started to cry. I still feel embarrassed now, whenever I look at those pictures. But I never regret it. It make me feels warm, to release that tears with you. Sometimes, it feels great to cry.
But I will never forget our second win, for our song Soom. Because I was the first person you hugged back then. I still remember you cry in my shoulder, and I try to become stronger (so I can protect you)., and decided to not cry like I did at our first win. And I made my promise back then. To always be by your side. To cheers you, to make you smile again, whenever you feels weary, just like now.
I know it’s hard. But we already reach this state. We have known as idol now. We are not rookie anymore who will cry over such things like won first at music program. We have to become stronger, isn’t? We have to bear every problem that awaits us. We have to stay strong. But, isn’t it okay? As long as I have you by my side, I will try my best. I’ll do everything. I don’t need anything else. Your smile is enough.
It’s cheesy isn’t?
That’s why I decided to write it down, and not tell you face to face. Because you know me so well, I have a problem with tell someone how I feel. But I hope you understand, and can show me your smile like always. You are not alone, I, and the other member, also b2uty, will always be your side.
p.s Ah, don’t laugh. I will never forgive you if you laugh.
No, Yoseob didn’t laugh nor smile after read that letter. He let that tears fall down, the tears which he held down for a long time. It feels relieved. People who tell cry is useless are wrong. They just too scared to admit it, that they are all weak. Everyone is fragile and weak. What make someone’s strong is when they have someone who care about them. And Yoseob is strong. Because he have Junhyung, who will always accept him whenever he didn’t have anywhere to go.