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well today was another depressing day. i woke up this morning and my mom told me to stay home cuz kirk still hasnt come home from grants. so i pretty much just sat there doing nothing. u dont really feel like doing much wen ur sick. then i considered doing homework but i figured it didnt really matter. i'd probly fail w/e test i took newayz. so i solved that problem. my dad thought i should go to my soccer game. that was a disaster. who can play soccer wen they feel like shit? i guess u have to. i played a little bit. not as much as usual. and my coach kept going, "u arite?" im like fuck no but u dont really care. it was like the hardest game ive played in my life. how are u supposed to play wen ur all dizzy and about to throw up? o well i did and i dont recommend it. then i went home and sat there for a little while longer.
i decided to go to jamies. she showed me these music videos that melinda n her made. they are fuckin hilarious. so we found this old tape from 7th grade that me n her made. we grew up so much. like we tried way too hard and looked like asses. it was really funny tho. i miss 7th grade so much. that tape had me laughin for the whole 45 minutes. then we thought we were all cool so we had jonathan murray in it. but he thought he was too cool for us so he gave us this look and kept walking. then he poured gatorade and drank it. our video was so random. jamie found some old tapes from like 97 and we watched those. it was mostly kelly and erin being stupid. they look sooo different. god ppl change so much. i hate it. then i walked home cuz it was like 8:45 and i was supposed to be watchin my brothers. i came home to a bowl of brownie mix. i was like WHOA wut is this. and kirk told me to put it in the oven. i actually just took them out, too. but im not eating them. because im starving myself from now on. i'll eat just enuff food to get me by. but i dont think anyone knows how fuckin hard it is for me right now. and im tired of all this being fat shit. i hate it. so imma just fix it the unhealthy way and starve myself. if i die soon...u kno why. get over it.
i decided to go to jamies. she showed me these music videos that melinda n her made. they are fuckin hilarious. so we found this old tape from 7th grade that me n her made. we grew up so much. like we tried way too hard and looked like asses. it was really funny tho. i miss 7th grade so much. that tape had me laughin for the whole 45 minutes. then we thought we were all cool so we had jonathan murray in it. but he thought he was too cool for us so he gave us this look and kept walking. then he poured gatorade and drank it. our video was so random. jamie found some old tapes from like 97 and we watched those. it was mostly kelly and erin being stupid. they look sooo different. god ppl change so much. i hate it. then i walked home cuz it was like 8:45 and i was supposed to be watchin my brothers. i came home to a bowl of brownie mix. i was like WHOA wut is this. and kirk told me to put it in the oven. i actually just took them out, too. but im not eating them. because im starving myself from now on. i'll eat just enuff food to get me by. but i dont think anyone knows how fuckin hard it is for me right now. and im tired of all this being fat shit. i hate it. so imma just fix it the unhealthy way and starve myself. if i die soon...u kno why. get over it.