honesty
with this holiday now upon me i can honestly say that i find myself out of place and lonely in a manner of speaking. i've talked to my parents about it. or rather e-mailed them about how i feel. i'm about to "celebrate" yet another year of life and the truth is that i can't feel anything about it. last year i was eager to turn 18. no real reason why, but i was. this year is quite different. this age carries with it no special meaning. at least none that i'm aware of.
on the contrary, i spend this time of the year as the first huge holidays away from the family that raised me and molded who i am. and that includes the extended family made up of friends. everyone who i understood and who understood me. as corny as it sounds i find myself "lost in translation" in a certain way. puns are very common in everyday speech here and i just don't know them all yet. not to mention that it seems that inhabitants of different places and even different social classes have their own way of saying things.
all this is taking quite a lot of getting used to and i know this sounds gloomy and possibly emo. life here isn't bad at all. it's just the current holiday that's bringing out these thoughts. my first semester of school has come and gone and overall it was quite good. good grades and experiences came with it. so far i don't really regret my decision to come here. and i'm hoping for experiences, knowledge and people that help me keep up with this. with time i'll go back and visit and enjoy everyone back at home.
speaking of home, i hope that everyone back at home and those from home who are currently elsewhere like myself have a great time during the holidays.
on the contrary, i spend this time of the year as the first huge holidays away from the family that raised me and molded who i am. and that includes the extended family made up of friends. everyone who i understood and who understood me. as corny as it sounds i find myself "lost in translation" in a certain way. puns are very common in everyday speech here and i just don't know them all yet. not to mention that it seems that inhabitants of different places and even different social classes have their own way of saying things.
all this is taking quite a lot of getting used to and i know this sounds gloomy and possibly emo. life here isn't bad at all. it's just the current holiday that's bringing out these thoughts. my first semester of school has come and gone and overall it was quite good. good grades and experiences came with it. so far i don't really regret my decision to come here. and i'm hoping for experiences, knowledge and people that help me keep up with this. with time i'll go back and visit and enjoy everyone back at home.
speaking of home, i hope that everyone back at home and those from home who are currently elsewhere like myself have a great time during the holidays.