bleh?
I feel shitty. Back at uni which sucks ass, is full of presentations and a shit load of work. Hate my job, the people are stupid, ignorant neddy assholes who dont wanna do any work and have absolutely nothing in common with me. Life in general just sucks and i cant be assed anymore. Dont get a day off, cant sleep, wanna diet but i just seem to crave sweeties and crisps when im trying to be good. ordered some clothes today that i know will just make me feel worse cause none of them will fit or they will just look ugly on my disguisting body.
im taking it out on derek when i dont mean to but everything is so messed up. its not his fault but hes sore and depressed and i have to try and be strong for him all of the time. im totally in debt with no way of paying it back.
i know it sounds selfish but im 21! i want to have fun , make friends, get drunk, do stupid things, buy myself nice things and maybe sometimes be lazy. but instead im out everyday at work or uni both of which i detest.
i know itll all be fine in the end but right now i just wanna cry at the constant boredom and hatred i feel towards my life. i feel like im heading for a mental breakdown.
im taking it out on derek when i dont mean to but everything is so messed up. its not his fault but hes sore and depressed and i have to try and be strong for him all of the time. im totally in debt with no way of paying it back.
i know it sounds selfish but im 21! i want to have fun , make friends, get drunk, do stupid things, buy myself nice things and maybe sometimes be lazy. but instead im out everyday at work or uni both of which i detest.
i know itll all be fine in the end but right now i just wanna cry at the constant boredom and hatred i feel towards my life. i feel like im heading for a mental breakdown.