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So I was perusing the boy's blog, reading up on his oftentimes hilarious take on life and society. It's so twisted, I can't help but giggle. So anyways, I was checkin it out, and came across his accounting of the last hurrah for his main chica, who happens to be moving away to Austin TX (and has actually, since moved there), when I came across
Despite claiming she wouldn't, Wolf (Wolf is his chica, to clarify) proceeded to get shitfaced. At one point she told my friend (he's just a friend, Wolf) that I'm fantastic and he should fall in love with me, stat. I didn't witness this exchange. If I'd been privy, she would've received a proper slap-down.
Now, as absinthenoir said to me when I brought this to his attention, isn't that what I was hoping for? Well, now that is a bit more complicated than it may seem. While yes, the reality of a relationship terrifies me, and usually sends me running screaming like a rabies-addled squirrel for the nearest oak tree, I sort of found myself hoping that this could be something more. And I'm sure that there is still that potential, but I just don't know how to make this thing work. I don't know how to take small steps to eventually arrive at the bigger picture. Which is why I'm ambivalent about this commentary. I mean...yay, mission accomplished, disaster averted, yet another guy tossing me into the 'friend' box for whatever fucking reason. And yet again, who do I have to blame but myself?
Despite claiming she wouldn't, Wolf (Wolf is his chica, to clarify) proceeded to get shitfaced. At one point she told my friend (he's just a friend, Wolf) that I'm fantastic and he should fall in love with me, stat. I didn't witness this exchange. If I'd been privy, she would've received a proper slap-down.
Now, as absinthenoir said to me when I brought this to his attention, isn't that what I was hoping for? Well, now that is a bit more complicated than it may seem. While yes, the reality of a relationship terrifies me, and usually sends me running screaming like a rabies-addled squirrel for the nearest oak tree, I sort of found myself hoping that this could be something more. And I'm sure that there is still that potential, but I just don't know how to make this thing work. I don't know how to take small steps to eventually arrive at the bigger picture. Which is why I'm ambivalent about this commentary. I mean...yay, mission accomplished, disaster averted, yet another guy tossing me into the 'friend' box for whatever fucking reason. And yet again, who do I have to blame but myself?