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Today, Mom and Dad left for Hawaii. They have no plans on returning to California anytime soon and it was Mom's last good bye to Shane.
We got to the airport at 7:15am and there was hardly any traffic. They overcast skies reassured us their flight would be clear and glorious. We sat cramped in the backseat with the looming feeling of separation binding us all tightly. There were no words. We arrived to a traffic jam curbside and unloaded the luggage. I jumped into the bed to make this process easier. I heard crying and turned to see Mom and Shane hugging. It was such a tight hug. The mother-son bond the only bright ray of love in the day. Shane's eyes were closed and I knew what Mom's face looked like. Shane looked up and I saw tears running from his eyes. The mere feeling of leaving someone you've always had by your side your whole life summed up in every stream running. I almost cried too. But I knew I had to be the one who didn't. Kalani and Jackie kissed good bye with laughs and casual boyfriend-girlfriend miss yous. Dad swooped up Shane into a bear hug that made me think of the times we all used to wrestle in the living room back in 727H. Kalani turned to me and said "see you Monday" and I smiled and wished him a comfy flight. The same with Dad. I finally turned to Mom and she was face full of beauty smeared with sadness and early morning reticence. My eyes almost immediately flooded as we wrapped our arms around each other thinking ahead that we would be fine after I got to Hawaii but feeling at the moment that the time had come to let go. I jumped into the truck and smiled at how close the seat felt to the wheel; Dad always drove so close to the petals in that old truck. I turned to see Mom, Dad, and Kalani walk off with Mom stopped dead in her tracks, bawling her eyes out saying "I love you I love you Shane". I turned to Shane and said "Roll down your window and say good bye to Mom". He turned and waved and I waved at her, hoping she could see me through the backseat window. It was the most emotional five minutes I've had in a long time. I'll see them soon.
We got to the airport at 7:15am and there was hardly any traffic. They overcast skies reassured us their flight would be clear and glorious. We sat cramped in the backseat with the looming feeling of separation binding us all tightly. There were no words. We arrived to a traffic jam curbside and unloaded the luggage. I jumped into the bed to make this process easier. I heard crying and turned to see Mom and Shane hugging. It was such a tight hug. The mother-son bond the only bright ray of love in the day. Shane's eyes were closed and I knew what Mom's face looked like. Shane looked up and I saw tears running from his eyes. The mere feeling of leaving someone you've always had by your side your whole life summed up in every stream running. I almost cried too. But I knew I had to be the one who didn't. Kalani and Jackie kissed good bye with laughs and casual boyfriend-girlfriend miss yous. Dad swooped up Shane into a bear hug that made me think of the times we all used to wrestle in the living room back in 727H. Kalani turned to me and said "see you Monday" and I smiled and wished him a comfy flight. The same with Dad. I finally turned to Mom and she was face full of beauty smeared with sadness and early morning reticence. My eyes almost immediately flooded as we wrapped our arms around each other thinking ahead that we would be fine after I got to Hawaii but feeling at the moment that the time had come to let go. I jumped into the truck and smiled at how close the seat felt to the wheel; Dad always drove so close to the petals in that old truck. I turned to see Mom, Dad, and Kalani walk off with Mom stopped dead in her tracks, bawling her eyes out saying "I love you I love you Shane". I turned to Shane and said "Roll down your window and say good bye to Mom". He turned and waved and I waved at her, hoping she could see me through the backseat window. It was the most emotional five minutes I've had in a long time. I'll see them soon.