thanksgiving
i sit here 10:21 on "thanksgiving" or should i say "thanksgenocide". not eating meat really added to my thanksgiving. oh how splendid it is and was. i guess you cant just assume the sarcasm so ill state that it is there. i woek up after a night of recording again. only a song to go before im done i think. this past week has been dedicated by me just to that. maybe its been a little longer i dont know. but i do know god damn does that shit take it out of ya. or maybe its staying up till 7 or 8 am. i dont know but never-the-less. im in boredomville and looking to get out. almost got into a fight with mike last night AGAIN. haha. lame. where in the hell are all the smiles? when will they arrive to me? it better not be much longer coz' this lonliness and bullshit depression i feel is really getting old. i think possibly i might be cursed with this for my lifetime but i guess i'll have to find out through time. fuckn mind racing all the time is killing me. words flowing all the time needing to be written down that too is fucking with me. my writing is my child and cometimes i get such amazing satisfaction out of it and other times it leads me to realizations of how the world or this world works, completely fake. so on another note i need someone who can understand me. till we meet again.
Donnie
Donnie