Attempted update.
I am emotionally and physically drained right now. I am almost so exhausted I don't want to write, but I will write a short update about why I feel like this.
Physically:
Clarissa came down with the stomach flu on Sunday, and today Conny woke up with it. I was woken up a little past 8 to clean up Conny becuase she had thrown up all over the bed and ( Read more... )
I kept thinking about you, thinking "oh my god, this is what Athena feels like *bleeergh* everyday". In it's own way it was amusing- even the part where Cat asked me how I felt and I cried out "I just want my mommy!!" XDDD
Luckily the virus hit me strong and hard, it was horrible for the majority of Wednesday- I had the worse chills, and could not warm up and then I was dying of heat but still unbearably cold, blergh. Thursday was better and there were no more toilet encounters I just felt very tired and I had the body aches associated with the flu. Friday I was up at 90% capacity and today its Saturday and I am completely over it, but I'm still wary of food simply because throwing up half digested meat is the grossest thing ever.
In all the ordeal left me -7 pounds, which I know are vanity pounds and will come back the minute I start eating more than crackers and cola (apparently Germans prescribe in Coca Cola as the stomach remedy, not Sprite)
As for the feelings of sadness associated with my grandma, I am actually ok. I feel moments of sadness, but talking about is not uncomfortable and I can say "my grandmother died" without feeling like the world is collapsing, shifting maybe to realign itself but not collapsing. Thanks for the words of encouragement though.
The pasta was so cute! It was white and red pasta and they were shaped into individual little hearts <3 adorable! I invented a new recipe and it was delicious! My friend Maja took some pictures on her phone I'll have to have her give them to me!
Miss you <3 <3
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