Attempted update.

[achileanabroad]

I am emotionally and physically drained right now. I am almost so exhausted I don't want to write, but I will write a short update about why I feel like this.

Physically:

Clarissa came down with the stomach flu on Sunday, and today Conny woke up with it. I was woken up a little past 8 to clean up Conny becuase she had thrown up all over the bed and

Comments

[silver_tiamat]

The flu is awful in a lot of ways. Though, really, it's very similar to the type of pregnancy I've been going through (only mine has lasted 4 months D=), so you can always just think of it as practice, I suppose. I hope it passes quickly--it sounds like it hasn't lasted much longer than a few days in any one person. And just think! It's your first German Flu! =D Not many people get to experience an almost entirely new flu strain to their body. =D Although, actually, now that I'm reminded of it, this may feel like the "worst flu you've ever had" because of that. And your sickness MAY (but not MUST) last longer than the rest of the family. Make sure you don't push yourself.

I think that the movie was probably more difficult to watch being separated from all parts of your family at the moment. You're sort of isolated from a lot of people right now, and on the wake of your grandmother's passing, it probably feels a lot like you're missing something in your life. I hope that this movie also helped remind you that it's not too late to connect with what you have left, and learn about what has gone before you. Hang in there.

Also, as side note: heart-shaped pasta? How is this?

[achileanabroad]

I honestly had to think about the last time I felt that sick/had the flu, it was when I was still in High School, like oh gosh 9 years ago!
I kept thinking about you, thinking "oh my god, this is what Athena feels like *bleeergh* everyday". In it's own way it was amusing- even the part where Cat asked me how I felt and I cried out "I just want my mommy!!" XDDD
Luckily the virus hit me strong and hard, it was horrible for the majority of Wednesday- I had the worse chills, and could not warm up and then I was dying of heat but still unbearably cold, blergh. Thursday was better and there were no more toilet encounters I just felt very tired and I had the body aches associated with the flu. Friday I was up at 90% capacity and today its Saturday and I am completely over it, but I'm still wary of food simply because throwing up half digested meat is the grossest thing ever.
In all the ordeal left me -7 pounds, which I know are vanity pounds and will come back the minute I start eating more than crackers and cola (apparently Germans prescribe in Coca Cola as the stomach remedy, not Sprite)

As for the feelings of sadness associated with my grandma, I am actually ok. I feel moments of sadness, but talking about is not uncomfortable and I can say "my grandmother died" without feeling like the world is collapsing, shifting maybe to realign itself but not collapsing. Thanks for the words of encouragement though.

The pasta was so cute! It was white and red pasta and they were shaped into individual little hearts <3 adorable! I invented a new recipe and it was delicious! My friend Maja took some pictures on her phone I'll have to have her give them to me!

Miss you <3 <3