This was in my journal...
"I'm so glad to see I amuse you and your friends.
And yes, you ARE a poser. You front alllll the time, claiming someone else's ideas as your own. You're not as popular as you think, and just because you're into a lot of 'trendy' things doesn't make you trendy yourself. You're so determined to be friends with everyone and to have everyone like you and not be mad at you for various things, but it just makes you look so desperate. It's your decision to work somewhere not close-by and it's your decision to live with your fiance, so it's also your decision how available you make yourself to your friends. "We should hang out sometime! Oh, but I can only do something on Wednesday between 8-10pm and Sunday mornings this week because I have to work, but.. I'd rather not on Sunday morning because that's the only time I get to sleep in," etc. If we are truly your friends you will make time for us, no matter what it involves switching around. And maybe you would have more of us if you actually called us once in a while. Don't call us to necessarily DO something, even. Call us just to talk, just because."
I'm pretty much SURE I know who wrote it. And the fact that its even bothering me is pissing me off, at myself!! I just guess that my thought is that I hope my friends don't REALLY feel this way about me!!
I don't EVER claim anyone else's ideas as mine... I give credit where credit's due. I don't even know what thats in reference to.
I don't think I'm popular, and NEVER have. I wasn't popular in HS, and I'm not now. I knew a LOT of people, thats not saying that I'm friends with a LOT... friends and acquaintances are VERY different things! I've also never claimed to be trendy... if any of my friends KNOW me they know I'm not, and thats the reason I didnt take the job at Aldo a long time ago because it's a very trendy place and it's not ME.
I don't try to be friends with everyone... my philosophy is that people like me or they dont. I don't feel like having to pretend to be something I'm not to someone/anyone to make them like me. I've never, ever been that way. My mother would curse you out if she read that. She knows I dont give two shits what ANYONE else thinks of me...I don't ask people to be my friends- I'm friends with people who have respect for me, and vice versa.
Yes, it is my decision where I work. It's my decision that I live with Kevin. I have NO regrets about ANY choices I've made in MY life. My real friends know that I'm busy, and that I do the best to see everyone. I've never been a person to call people "just to talk"... I hate talking on the phone, its just not ME. I DO make time for the people and things that are important to me... and if you were ANYONE in my life you would know that "make time for the things that are important" is my MOTTO.
Grrr... I don't know why I let that get to me, I guess I just always feel the need to explain myself when people call me out like that!! I'm leaving the comments open for this too... If anyone else agrees here, please comment. I'd like to know if this is how my friends REALLY think of me!! Sooo... tell me.
And yes, you ARE a poser. You front alllll the time, claiming someone else's ideas as your own. You're not as popular as you think, and just because you're into a lot of 'trendy' things doesn't make you trendy yourself. You're so determined to be friends with everyone and to have everyone like you and not be mad at you for various things, but it just makes you look so desperate. It's your decision to work somewhere not close-by and it's your decision to live with your fiance, so it's also your decision how available you make yourself to your friends. "We should hang out sometime! Oh, but I can only do something on Wednesday between 8-10pm and Sunday mornings this week because I have to work, but.. I'd rather not on Sunday morning because that's the only time I get to sleep in," etc. If we are truly your friends you will make time for us, no matter what it involves switching around. And maybe you would have more of us if you actually called us once in a while. Don't call us to necessarily DO something, even. Call us just to talk, just because."
I'm pretty much SURE I know who wrote it. And the fact that its even bothering me is pissing me off, at myself!! I just guess that my thought is that I hope my friends don't REALLY feel this way about me!!
I don't EVER claim anyone else's ideas as mine... I give credit where credit's due. I don't even know what thats in reference to.
I don't think I'm popular, and NEVER have. I wasn't popular in HS, and I'm not now. I knew a LOT of people, thats not saying that I'm friends with a LOT... friends and acquaintances are VERY different things! I've also never claimed to be trendy... if any of my friends KNOW me they know I'm not, and thats the reason I didnt take the job at Aldo a long time ago because it's a very trendy place and it's not ME.
I don't try to be friends with everyone... my philosophy is that people like me or they dont. I don't feel like having to pretend to be something I'm not to someone/anyone to make them like me. I've never, ever been that way. My mother would curse you out if she read that. She knows I dont give two shits what ANYONE else thinks of me...I don't ask people to be my friends- I'm friends with people who have respect for me, and vice versa.
Yes, it is my decision where I work. It's my decision that I live with Kevin. I have NO regrets about ANY choices I've made in MY life. My real friends know that I'm busy, and that I do the best to see everyone. I've never been a person to call people "just to talk"... I hate talking on the phone, its just not ME. I DO make time for the people and things that are important to me... and if you were ANYONE in my life you would know that "make time for the things that are important" is my MOTTO.
Grrr... I don't know why I let that get to me, I guess I just always feel the need to explain myself when people call me out like that!! I'm leaving the comments open for this too... If anyone else agrees here, please comment. I'd like to know if this is how my friends REALLY think of me!! Sooo... tell me.