Go ahead. Make yourself a hero.
5 months. 7 days. 21 hours. 29 minutes.
I feel at ease. There's no real reason for it. I feel at east and I've been feeling that itch. Surfing the web today and found an article on the Yahoo! front page about things you can do to keep your brain sharp [http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/12-simple-ways-to-supercharge-your-brain-293892/]. Blogging was one of them. Not that an internet article is the underlying motivating factor for this, but I've been feeling that itch.
My outlets for creativity have all but vanished. I haven't written poetry or prose in awhile. The fingertips of my left hand have lost their callouses. I don't know what's happened to me. I've lost my edge. I've stopped challenging myself. Writing is an exploration into my psyche and I've lost that fire to delve into it. Part of it must have come from complacency, another from wanting to reclaim a sense of privacy but now it seems like I'm just keeping my head in the sand without actively engaging in what has become my life.
Passivity. Sloth is the deadly sin I'm most guilty of committing. I used to think Pride was it but now, definitely Sloth. And Halloween, which is just a couple of days passed, has become an interesting anniversary for me.
I spent last Halloween eating pad thai in the parking lot of a shopping center while listening to talk radio after deciding that I'd had enough of graduate school and skipping out of my class. It's one of those moments of clarity and boldness I'm prone to every once in a blue moon. It's one of those moments where I feel like myself. Sometimes I feel indomitable.
Samhain was Celtic New Year. The dead walked the earth and druids could see the future. People wore costumes to hide among the spirits or to calm them. The summer has been over for weeks now. I like autumn and spring because of the transience they embody. They're periods of transition and going into the winter, I'm feeling emboldened. Indomitable.
June 15, 2008. Turkey was playing the Czech Republic in the a Euro 2008 group stage match in Stade de Genève in Geneva, Switzerland that would decide which team would move on to the knock-out phase. Deep into the second half two goals down in favor of the Czechs, Servet Çetin, a Turkish central defender, missed a chance to put the game within one when he missed a header from a corner kick. it's the type of shot on goal that you can't miss in a game like that. The announcer, bemoaning the fact that such an opportunity fell to a defender, uttered with completely disappointment in his Scottish accent, "Go ahead. Make yourself a hero." That phrase has stuck with me. In the last 15 minutes, Turkey scored three goals to win the game.
I feel at ease. There's no real reason for it. I feel at east and I've been feeling that itch. Surfing the web today and found an article on the Yahoo! front page about things you can do to keep your brain sharp [http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/12-simple-ways-to-supercharge-your-brain-293892/]. Blogging was one of them. Not that an internet article is the underlying motivating factor for this, but I've been feeling that itch.
My outlets for creativity have all but vanished. I haven't written poetry or prose in awhile. The fingertips of my left hand have lost their callouses. I don't know what's happened to me. I've lost my edge. I've stopped challenging myself. Writing is an exploration into my psyche and I've lost that fire to delve into it. Part of it must have come from complacency, another from wanting to reclaim a sense of privacy but now it seems like I'm just keeping my head in the sand without actively engaging in what has become my life.
Passivity. Sloth is the deadly sin I'm most guilty of committing. I used to think Pride was it but now, definitely Sloth. And Halloween, which is just a couple of days passed, has become an interesting anniversary for me.
I spent last Halloween eating pad thai in the parking lot of a shopping center while listening to talk radio after deciding that I'd had enough of graduate school and skipping out of my class. It's one of those moments of clarity and boldness I'm prone to every once in a blue moon. It's one of those moments where I feel like myself. Sometimes I feel indomitable.
Samhain was Celtic New Year. The dead walked the earth and druids could see the future. People wore costumes to hide among the spirits or to calm them. The summer has been over for weeks now. I like autumn and spring because of the transience they embody. They're periods of transition and going into the winter, I'm feeling emboldened. Indomitable.
June 15, 2008. Turkey was playing the Czech Republic in the a Euro 2008 group stage match in Stade de Genève in Geneva, Switzerland that would decide which team would move on to the knock-out phase. Deep into the second half two goals down in favor of the Czechs, Servet Çetin, a Turkish central defender, missed a chance to put the game within one when he missed a header from a corner kick. it's the type of shot on goal that you can't miss in a game like that. The announcer, bemoaning the fact that such an opportunity fell to a defender, uttered with completely disappointment in his Scottish accent, "Go ahead. Make yourself a hero." That phrase has stuck with me. In the last 15 minutes, Turkey scored three goals to win the game.