my heart can not break enough for your love, a well that runs deep within my soul
my life is good. it has its downs as with any life, but overall i am really truly blessed to be alive and well. ive been thinking alot about my life and my walk with Christ. its not as strong as it should be but i should always strive to be closer to Him. i dont know, in a weird way God is a lot like certain drugs. you first start and when you experience them for the first time, you always want to get that feeling back, and you try and try and the next thing you know youre addicted (alright im just saying this as a general statement, i know really nothing about drugs so work with me) and being without them is torture and you cant live w/o them. and i think in the weirdest way possible, God is like drugs, or at least He should be. we/i should be able to try and try to get that first feeling when we realized that He is our lord and savior, and that life without him is torture and unbearable. if you think my analogy is strange, im sorry, im just trying to put my thoughts in some sort of context.
people say that they are christians, but i mean sometimes can you really tell? if they never talk about Him or anything remotely close to their faith, does that mean that they are true? i dont know. i just hope that when people look at me they know that i am a christian, and of course, not a perfect one, but one that knows that life is not possible without Him and just being able to praise Him and say His name, i just am unworthy to do so. and if youre not a christian, thats totally cool, i wont preach to you but as long as you have respect for my beliefs, i will for sure respect yours, as long as you dont worship the devil or something cuz uhh ill prolly run away from you.
i havent been to church in a really long time, and that saddens me. i dont know, i just havent found a church and felt that feeling... i think my mission is to find a church in the next month, and devote myself to going.
and whats a post without mentioning my boyfriend? yes, matt is seriously the person i am going to spend the rest of my life with. 11 months this saturday:D i think of him and i cant help but smile. ive never known of anyone who cares so much for me and who loves me as much as he does. and of course i feel the same way. hes amazing, and i thank God everyday for sending this wonderful person to my life because i cant imagine what life would be like without that kid<3333
thats it.
okiee byee!
people say that they are christians, but i mean sometimes can you really tell? if they never talk about Him or anything remotely close to their faith, does that mean that they are true? i dont know. i just hope that when people look at me they know that i am a christian, and of course, not a perfect one, but one that knows that life is not possible without Him and just being able to praise Him and say His name, i just am unworthy to do so. and if youre not a christian, thats totally cool, i wont preach to you but as long as you have respect for my beliefs, i will for sure respect yours, as long as you dont worship the devil or something cuz uhh ill prolly run away from you.
i havent been to church in a really long time, and that saddens me. i dont know, i just havent found a church and felt that feeling... i think my mission is to find a church in the next month, and devote myself to going.
and whats a post without mentioning my boyfriend? yes, matt is seriously the person i am going to spend the rest of my life with. 11 months this saturday:D i think of him and i cant help but smile. ive never known of anyone who cares so much for me and who loves me as much as he does. and of course i feel the same way. hes amazing, and i thank God everyday for sending this wonderful person to my life because i cant imagine what life would be like without that kid<3333
thats it.
okiee byee!