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i got fired. they were assholes anyway. i knew i wouldn't be able to last that long. oh well, there are better things out there for me. i've been bad to myself lately. i lost my job, my grades are slipping, my mind is everywhere where it SHOULDN'T be ... my mom & i fight. when is it going to end? eric said i need to start taking care of my responsibilities & that he's worried about me. he said i need to "care more". it's true, though. i really haven't given a shit about anything. schoolwork, myself, friends, my house, work, & everything else. i just gave up. but the thing is - i don't want to give up. there are people in my life that love me & don't want to see me fail at life. I don't want to see me fail at life. but life isn't fair. it's better to learn that early. i graduate high school in two fucking weeks. my god.
we're going to a HUGE amusement park tomorrow. it should be fun. eric & i want to spend a lot of time in the water park. we have to pay extra, but we don't care. we love seeing each other in our swimwear. there is just something about it. Mmmmmm.
this girl met DAVE MATTHEWS at THE SAME CONCERT ERIC & I WENT TO! i have been jealous. our day will come, i know it.
but it's late & i need some sleep.
goodnight. ♥
we're going to a HUGE amusement park tomorrow. it should be fun. eric & i want to spend a lot of time in the water park. we have to pay extra, but we don't care. we love seeing each other in our swimwear. there is just something about it. Mmmmmm.
this girl met DAVE MATTHEWS at THE SAME CONCERT ERIC & I WENT TO! i have been jealous. our day will come, i know it.
but it's late & i need some sleep.
goodnight. ♥